#ty2014

[lolteafunny]

It's kind of funny how I try so hard to please you. Why should I? I just act stupid and unintelligent. Why do I need to downgrade myself? If I'm not in the mood to talk, I should just not talk. I shouldn't have to put on a smile and laugh because I need to please you.

[lolteafunny]

I thought she liked you. Ha. That bitch. She doesn't even care.

[lolteafunny]

But I'm still lonely. I realize that I am an actual high schooler And that I'm practically almost done with it. Who do I have? You are gone. Where do I look? Everyone has found someone. Except me. Of course.

[lolteafunny]

I'm happy for you. You found a new group of friends. I'm genuinely happy.

[lolteafunny]

Can't breathe whenever you're gone Can't turn back now, I'm haunted I know, I know, I just know You're not gone. You can't be gone. No.

Taylor Swift, Haunted

[lolteafunny]

I didn't realize how much I miss you. 

[lolteafunny]

"What do you like in a guy?"

I basically described you. I didn't realize I was describing you. But at the same time, I did. I knew I was describing you and I didn't care if she knew. 

She knew.

[lolteafunny]

I don't know what I felt when she told me. I was surprised, astonished, in awe. But it didn't hit me until after. Was she testing me? I'm sure she knows. She always finds a way to know.