#tyhjvg

[tyhjvg]

Wait I was thinking

I'm black and poor in a country when it like to kill us for sport

I mean take us to court

I mean jail us for sport

I was thinking I'm running away from the inevitable that sooner rather than later I'm going to lose my mind but it's going to go bkank

my heart was going to stall my feet were going to stop

I was thinking will my last moments be spent on the ground being penalised for making this sound being treated as if it was nothing but roadkill

as if I was just another anonymous face on a bill I was thinking I'm standing on solid ground but I feel like I'm drowning or I'm sinking.

I was beyond reality, stuck in fantasy.

[tyhjvg]

There's this guy I know, he messes me up in all the right ways, Boy got me swooning for days, his voice is smooth silk over rough vegan leather, he's sinfully beautiful, a masterpiece come alive, head to toe , reminds me of something sculpted by Michaelangelo, his mind is delicious, damn I love the way he talks science to me, well let's say he doesn't need to dirty talk me to get me going, his heart, a heart of gold, so golden he looks like he's forever glowing.

[tyhjvg]

Queens are underrated, as women often are. Look back to the history books, Queens are often overlooked, mistreated as if they are weak just because of their sex, this all leads back to the garden of Eden , to Eve, the 1st women and her crimes against humanity. Or is it crimes against god's differently functioning moral compass, He put two people he had blessed with free will in a garden, then allowed them to be tested by the devil, allowed him to see if they could resist the temptation of the master of lies, like the tale of pandora , Eve is also gifted with curiosity, a suggestion that every woman is gifted with curiosity, that their curiosity can lead them astray, I mean that the use of their own brains could lead to the destruction of the patriarchal society, I mean polite society, I mean of the world,to anarchy.

As if women aren't the building blocks of our society, as if they didn't conceive the men that weave the lies that say that women are the enemy of men , that women should bear children and do nothing else but be housewives, that we should live our lives only to survive, instead of thrive. Instead of making a name for ourselves, instead of living off our wants and needs. Again looking back at history, yes women have gained more and more rights , but women around the world are still facing gender based mistreatment, being treated as if women matter less than common animals, as if women are made to be traded , degraded for everything, from eating what they want to being able to speak freely, women are still getting their wings clipped as if we are mere farm chickens to be kept in pens instead of flying freely in the sky , instead of being free to ascend to the highest heights, to be who we want to be. Again look through the history books, women have had our growth stunted, then being degraded for being unable to read and write as well as most men, being called illiterate, unworthy. We,Women are as great as men, sometimes even greater than, we need to rise up, I mean we need to allow ourselves to fly instead of fall, to help eachother, instead of always quarrelling with each other, we need to get on the same pages instead of acting like we are all enemies, all islands floating apart with miles of sea separating them.

[tyhjvg]

I find myself in a situation that I can't weasel my way out of, I made my bed, now I've got to sleep in it, I'm trapped in a never ending loop, like happy death day, I die again and again, find myself retracing my steps, reliving the same day, unable to escape.

[tyhjvg]

I'ma queen without a crown, I'ma queen when I'm a clown, I'ma queen with make-up and a queen without, I'ma queen without heels, I'ma queen with a dress on , a queen in leggings and or jeans, I'ma queen when I'm a mess, a queen when I'm best dressed, a queen when I smoke, I'ma queen rich, I'ma queen broke, I'ma queen with a smile and a queen without , I'ma queen with my head inna book, a queen when I'm doing sports,. I'ma queen when nice, a queen when I'm mean, I'ma queen with a resting bitch face, I'ma queen when I'm awake and asleep, I'ma queen when I work and when I don't, I'ma queen as a mother and a queen when I'm childless, Basically I'm a queen whatever I do and wherever I am. Queens come in all shapes and sizes

[tyhjvg]

My body

My body is mine,not yours,. So keep your dirty add paws, I mean hands , off and away from me, you want a queen without a voice, without the power of choice, I suggest you look elsewhere , you ain't gonna find her here, I'ma queen loud as a lion, not a pillow to lie on, or a stool to step on , you want me, but just the parts you find sexy , like my mouth without a voice to speak with, you'd rather I use my tongue for other purposes, you want a rose without thorns, you want a queen without a brain, or a queen you can contain, one you can put in a cage and she won't complain, you want a beautiful bird with clipped wings, so you can deny her right to fly, so you can hold her down, instead of helping her fly higher than the limits of the sky. You seem to think that your worthy of me, when you're really just dirt beneath my feet.

[tyhjvg]

I see through your closed eyes, I see through your hole filled lies, I see you screaming at the top of your lungs,wanting the ground to open up and swallow you whole, I see your humiliation and embarrassed laughter, I see you, you,who is looking for forever after, for a fairytale romance, you who believes that you are not enough so you are determined to never be you but someone else entirely, you who is so full of soul, love and mischief that you're ready to overflow, out of the hourglass cage you've hidden the true you in. I see you, you are pure brilliance, beauty, generosity, kindness and childishness when you allow yourself to be seen, I see you, you with your wings that you haven't yet spread, I see you, you with shooting stars for eyes, you with your love of reading, writing, you always full of light and hope even when you're eternal clock is messed up and you find your heart bleeding. I see you, a true iris, goddess of rainbows. You, whom no one can contain, you and your beautiful brain

[tyhjvg]

Black Barbie dolll

Somedays they call me black Barbie dolll, otherdays I'm a fat black bitch, a bougie bitch with too much talk and not enough fists, I fight with my words , not my hands, I'm a writer not a fighter, I can't take you to tasks with my hands so I rake you across the coals with words from my lips, with my words I can block out your sunlight, turn you into a solar eclips, I'm not a fan of ripped jeans, I'd rather wear clothes that don't appear to be tearing away at the seams. They call me black Barbie doll,you know if Barbie was plus- sized, with a fat face and tiny eyes, with more that 2 rolls, I'm a fat black bitch when I don't speak in the way that they want me to. When I allow myself to speak my mind, to talk back,to be outspoken. Do y'all expect me not to talk, why my mouth ain't broken, ask me if I can walk the walk, well I talk better than I walk , my words will choke you out, I'm like a prima ballerina, classy writer John Cena , you can't see me but I've seen ya,I'm not one for confrontation but I love a little clout chasing or should I say cloud casing , I case clouds/ case rooms with crowds, always watching out , you know for a little bit of clout, I may not fight with my hands but I'm no girls scout.