Matthew would have told Starling to leave you there if he knew it was you. He knows you're just bad luck. A death omen.
Holly sat still, staring down at her lap. It was something she’d not been able to shake since Jeremiah’s death, and it felt true enough. Everyone close to her died ugly, and before their time, and yet somehow she always lived. She had to keep going. It was part of what held her back from people sometimes. That hesitance she felt when she realized that she liked a person, and wanted to spend more time with them. It seemed like by doing that she’d be jinxing them somehow. Condemning them to a horrible, bloody death.
It was a stupid thought, maybe, but it wouldn’t go away.
“Maybe so,” she said quietly, giving a light shrug, “Mighta been better if he had. Make things easier for some folks.”