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Logan baby <3

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Weeks passed and Lance tried and tried to get a hold of me. He sent me texts after text and calls after calls, but I kept ignoring the calls and texts. This went on for about 8 weeks until they completely stopped for about another 4 weeks. At this point I hadn’t seen Lance since Hawaii and that was almost 4 months ago. I did a whole lot of online shopping. I barely left the house. I couldn’t face the world. I couldn’t handle that the best 6 months of my life, were the worst for others. That my actions caused so much heart-ache. I’ll admit when I  didn’t hear from Lance, I was really happy. I figured that meant he worked things out with his wife. And at the same time, that made me really sad. i didn’t want to be with him. I didn’t trust him in the slightest but I couldn’t help but be jealous and I know I have no right, but I’m only human.

For the first time since I moved, I decided to go for a walk. I hadn’t had a chance to enjoy the view of the water. I walk only walking the lake for a few minutes when I heard a sound following behind me, to my surprise, Lance stood behind me, I turned around slowly. “Hazel I” he said and stopped mid sentence when he looked at me. “Hazel….Oh my…Why? Why didn’t you tell me?” I took in a deep breath. “I think I’ve caused your family enough pain, don’t you?” I said irritated. “Hazel, it’s my baby isn’t it?” he asked carefully. “That’s a really stupid question Lance. Of course, he’s yours….” Lance started to tear up. “It-it’s my boy?” I tried not to smile but it was the first time I had really got to talk about the baby. And I know I shouldn’t be, but I was excited that he was excited for the baby. I smiled from ear to ear. “His name is Elli…. that’s what I’ve been calling him…” Lance whipped tears from his face. “That’s a beautiful name… Hazel how far along are you?” he asked. “Almost 23 weeks…. Lance…. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you sooner. I just… I didn’t know what to do or say. Or how? Do I show up at your house with your other family? Do I call your phone and hope your wife doesn’t answer?” I asked sarcastically. He took in a deep breath, “I know I put you in an impossible situation… but I can’t change it, all I can do is try to make the circumstances better. I know that I went about this all so wrong but I’m trying to make everything right.” he tried to explain. “I-I don’t know what that mean and I’m not really sure if I want to, but I guess only time will tell.” I said. “I guess so,” he agreed.

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Quinnlynn <3

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Transplant day:

Liam: Hey there. How you doing? I brought you a water.

Amelia: Im scared Liam...

Liam: Dont be. Today is only the beginning, but today changes everything. 

Amelia: im so scared I’ll reject them. 

Liam: You cant think like that. 

Amelia: How do you do that?

Liam: Do what? 

Amelia: Be so positive all the time?

Liam: You have to be or you’ll make yourself miserable.

Amelia: i just..I don’t know how to live normally. I don’t know what average people worry about. I don’t know how to live. I don’t know what its like to have control. Why do you think i always have crazy hair?! Its the only thing in my world I have control over. It gives me an once of control, its all I have. I dont know what its like to pull yourself out of bed and take in a deep breathe or to be able to catch your breathe after carrying something heavy or walking quick, and forget running because I never catch my breath. I don’t run, or carry heavy items because my lungs would collapse. I don’t know what its like to not think about those things. I don’t know what a Friday night for a normal 24 year old is because on Fridays I sit in a therapy chair and receive air! I don’t get to go out to the bars, because my body cant handle alcohol. I cant go out dancing because I cant breathe walking, let alone dancing. I wont get to run with my kids or dance at my wedding and I may never ever get that chance. 

Liam: Two weeks ago...You told me you didn't want anything serious because you didn't know where your life would be and you didn't want to be a devastation...Right after you told me you had no one who cared and I shut that down. I let you know you’d always have me as a friends or whatever you needed. A shoulder, a listener, I’d be there. You pushed and I took two leaps forward, I haven't left your side. I’ll give you everything you’ve ever wanted if its my last breathe Amelia Denver. I’ll give you my wedding, my dance, my children and all your dreams. I’ll work everyday to make your dreams mine. You said you wanted to feel the wind of mountain Great(local large mountain), I’ll carry you on my shoulders to bring you to the top if I have to. You said you wanna feel how it feels to be in the arms of a man dancing, I’ll carry you in my arms, completely swept off your feet, if it means you get your dance. But I know you will do all those things on your own, because your going to get the thing you’ve waited your whole life for today, lungs. Lungs that will let you do, what lungs are supposed to do, breathe. And as you wake, I’ll be in that chair (points), to follow your dreams with you. 

Amelia: (sobbing) Dont break me Liam Dean. (sit up grabbing Liam in a hug)

Liam: (hugs back) Never would I ever.