JoshNeku just makes me go so feral.
The fucking. Neku trusts Josh. He trusts him and still considers him one of his important people!
The mix of 'this is someone who knows how I think inside and out' and 'this is someone who ripped me to shreds and I'm still raw about it'.
And how Neku is Joshua's precious, precious link to humanity. He's not an almighty composer in Neku's eyes (unless it can be used to rib him). Neku's scared of him, what he can do, but he'll reach past the fear to smack him on the shoulder regardless.
Neku is so. So fragile compared to Joshua. Physically, conceptually, compositionally. Joshua could erase him. Joshua could overpower him. Joshua could rewrite him.
But Neku is also Joshua's lynchpin. If Neku was a worse person, he could rule Shibuya as a proxy. There's nothing Josh wouldn't do for Neku, because Neku isn't the kind of person who would ask for it and it makes him gnash his teeth and claw at the walls that he wants to be impressive for Neku and Neku. Won't. Let. Him.