I'm so freaking sad. I just lost my uncle. My favorite uncle. He was more of a dad to me than my own father. He was supposed to walk me down the Isle one day. I guess that dream is over in more ways than one. I want some one to talk to. But My bestfriend is always so busy. But it's not her fault at all. She has a beautiful relationship going on. Plus she dealing with other issues of her own. But I feel bad the one other person that I truly turn to is never around. Like my heart feels like it's dying. And I know he could make me feel better. I just wished he cared about me as much as he cares about every else. Like I'm always his back burner. He's never here for me. And he doesn't want me to be there for him. Like what the fuck did do. I'm so lost. My life is falling apart and I'm alone. I'm always alone. Maybe every one after all this time was right. He just doesn't want me. I mean I can't blame him. He only likes the idea of me. But I'm such a big disappointment.i just wanna stop bugging people's lives. But idk how to stop. There all better off with out me. I mean there making it fine with out me now. I'm so sorry for ruining every ones life.
