Jul 29, 2025
A beautiful summer flower has bloomed ~
#cats#mr. flower boye......#ggr... so busy this past week.. I've had no time for literally anything.. Or like.. I just feel like#my to-do lists keep passing me by. I'll have 10 things on my list in the morning. then I can only cross off like 3 things by the end of the#day. so the 7 other things just roll over to the next day. again and again. piling up.#I think part of it is just I'm so bad at estimating how long a task will take. Like I finally finished that Crafting Vlog type video thing.#and I was reviewing it on youtube and i noticed that some of the automatic captions were wrong. So I was like 'oh hee hee I'll just go in#and change them quickly!'. Which is is a full hour long video (oops) but like.. oh my god.. EVEN working with the auto captions#as a base (so I'm mostly editing - not typing from scratch) - I think in total it took me like... 6 hours? or possibly even more?? It didn'#even take me that long to edit the video lol... So that's one of those things#where I'd put it on my list for monday - then it ends up taking actually mutliple days - so I finish it on Thursday or something instead#and everything else gets pushed back. etc. etc. -_-#Or like how my game was supposed to be done LAST year.. haha.. hehe... lol even...#But I think I have less like.. External obligations this week (like appointments and calls and emails and bills and etc) so...#hopefully that doesn't change and I can kind of have a less interrupted focus.#I am in a bit of a pain flare up though.. I'm still not unpacked (GRRRR...) from moving so I think I really need to at least fully set up#my desk and stuff. the way I've been sleeping and working on the computer is probably not good for my already evil joints. I have#only slept in my actual bed like.. once?? since I moved about a month ago. I've been sleeping on the floor other than that. and I#don't have my monitor set up fully so I've had to just sit at the computer when usually I can stand sometimes when sitting becomes#uncomfortable.. .. anyway#I found that rug at The Bins like evrytjhing else I own. which is COOL. because like.. rugs are apparently super expensive??#especially specialty ones that are colored fancy or shaped like things.. I bet that rug was like $90 or something new.#I always feel a liiiitle weird about getting stuff like that from the bins since like.. what if there were bugs or mold in it. but I think#when I first got it I let it sit in a trashbag for like 2 months and then cleaned it and aired it out or something lol#I'm also really trying to focus on sculptures and costumes again. it's just hard to balance with working full time on my game. but#I need to.. I really don't think I'll make any money from my game. but I CAN sell sculptures and clothes soo... erm... with the current#economic situation I feel pressure to shift gears into things that are more ''useful''. or at least like.. try and balance those in more#than I am now.. SIGH.. So like.. sorry.. if I start posting trying to promote my game or sculptures or something LOL.. i hate marketing#SOOO much like it's so unbearable to me.. gods... The Asocial Hermit Hurdle Of All Time.. hgbhjbj... ANYWAY...#... sleepy. oughh... not much energy to say things.. but! .. son boy images... the rug compliments his color :3