Silv/Gio thoughts bc aaaaaaaaaa *rams my head into wall at full speed*
Gods I'm so horny for Gio/Silver but most of all I'm so entranced by the idea of Silver still allowing this to happen.
Just, Silver clinging to moments in which he can forget that he was abandoned, he can pretend that Gio never left him and always has been here for him, that nothing ever changed. There is nothing but them being close and Silver clinging to his father, desperate for every ounce of affection and care and pleasure that is offered to him.
And maybe he could pretend Gio is at least a bit regretful about abandoning him, for those long harrowing three years that changed them so much but that would mean acknowledging it at all. That's more suitable for a bitter morning after, cold air and self hatred. So Silver won't ever allow that belief, that there is any regret at all, to take root. It's easier to hate himself for being so desperate and leave the second he opens his eyes.