#understandme

[idiotdollyspirited]

i wanna bring back ear kissing👌🏼👌🏼

[freeswag-offline]

how i feel when i get that universe knowledge & connection with world energy

don’t think just FEEL

[monicapennington]

Try this again ... this what linked here from Google Drive. Just a little introduction of what is going on in my head.

I ❤ You, Pedro Pascal!

(No really)

There comes a time when all you’ve ever learned, known or felt doesn’t matter.  I mean, what do we know about love anyway?  There are so many different kinds of love.  There’s the love you have for your family … the love for your friends, your children … your God … the love for a hobby, a song or a book.  Even for a movie but what is love really?

Scientists would say that it’s a chemical reaction to some kind of hormone whatchamacallit.  Hell I don’t know.

I can tell you this for sure.  Love is a feeling that can either make you stronger or tear you apart from the inside out and break our spirit and your soul … not to mention your sanity.

I don’t know how many times I’ve been or thought I have been in love, but I know it hurts every time.

The last one, Richard, ohhhh that man, I love him still but I’ll never be in his life as I should lol.  When it ended,  I wanted to die.  I literally wanted to end it all.  I thought about all the ways I could have done it too.  Jump off the Harriman bridge, overdose, cut my wrists … alas, I’m too much of a coward.  I don’t like pain, taking medicine and definitely don’t want to go to Hell.  Besides, each time I lose someone, a piece of my heart dies anyway.  One day, there won’t be anything left.  But I digress.

1)     About Me

What can I tell you about me?  This year, as I write this, I’m 54 years old.  Did I mention that I’m afraid of getting old?  I’m afraid of not waking up one day and missing  … well … everything.  My daughter graduating Nursing School.  Her getting married one day.  Grandkids?  I’m on the fence about that (lol).

If it was possible and without growing old or having dementia, I would.  I don’t want to miss anything.  I know, stupid and probably childish but I would rather be that than dying and either be buried beneath the ground and become worm food or be burned to ash to be kept in a box or blown away with the wind.

I don’t feel like I have lived yet. Plain and simple.  Short and sweet.

2)   Dreams

My dreams are sometimes like déjà vu.  What that means is that sometimes  I’ll dream and some day in the future it may happen or I feel like it has.  You’re probably saying to yourselves, “Uhhhh … OK" and slowly backing away.  That is cool, you be you.  I’ll tell you though, I think everyone can to some extent.

Anyway, I have dreamed about Pedro Pascal for months now.  Weird dreams and some that seem so real that I could reach out and touch him.  It’s driving me nuts and either they need to stop or something needs to happen.  I need him in my life, which definitely needs to happen.   Which leads to this ….

3)   Romance Scams and Dealing with Them

Lately, it seems like everyone and their brother wants to be Pedro Pascal.  It used to be that you would get something from a U.S. soldier or a millionaire who is widowed with a young son.  Now, everyone want to be a celebrity.  Henry Cavill, Sting, and Mr. Pascal … it is always who you are interested in and what fan pages you’re following.  Circling like hungry sharks (cue the Jaws theme), they try to cull out the innocent, the naïve, and the well meaning fan.  Once they have found their prey, they strike!  If you’re not careful, they will take everything you have … your savings, your pride and dignity, your sanity, and your heart and soul.

What do they get out of it other than cash?  What makes them want to do this?  Is it or can it be considered a terrorist act?  I don’t know but it is a pain in the ass.

Just remember these things:

   A:  If you are contacted by someone claiming to be a celebrity and you think it’s too good to be true, it probably is and it definitely isn’t a celeb.  It’s more like someone’s ugly cousin from Nigeria.

   B:  If he or she is talking about falling in love with you without even meeting you, it’s a scam.

   C:  If they want you to contact their management to schedule a meet and greet … no matter price … check the email address.  Management will never and I mean NEVER!!! have a Gmail address.

   D:  If a guy (or gal) wants to meet you and cares anything about you, he will do everything in his power to find you.

Save all the emails and texts.  Report them to the social media you’re using and possibly send the file to the FTC.

4)   Why Pedro Pascal?

How I love that man.  I never knew anything about him until The Kingsman: The Golden Circle.  I’m sitting there watching the movie and Agent Whiskey appears.  First thought was ‘well hello there handsome’.  Then, ‘you can lasso me anytime’.  Yeah, I’m a 54 year old teenager.  A few weeks later, I was watching The Great Wall, which for a Matt Damon flick is pretty good.  I notice the actor portraying Tovar.  This guy looked awfully familiar but I couldn’t figure it out.  I watched the end credits and got the name.  Time for google – movies with Pedro Pascal.  There it is … Golden Circle.  I’ll be dang.  A few weeks later, I’m checking out season 1 of The Mandalorian.  Pretty good show and Baby Yoda (I’m dying from the cuteness).  The episode I’m watching is the one Mando takes his mask off in front of the Droid.  Holy shiznit, there he is again!  Ok, have to find out more about him.  I mean, third time’s a charm, right?

Yeah, went total fangirl.  However, this didn’t push me over the edge.

... Ok, quit your stalling, Mo.  What gives?

Pedro Pascal is … beautiful.  Not just outside but inside too.  He cares about his fans, his family and the rights of others.  He is an intelligent deep thinker and enjoys deep thought worthy novels.  He reposted on Twitter this animation about accepting yourself.  That you’re beautiful even if you have stretch marks,  scars, overweight… and I cried.  I mean flat out sobbed.  He absolutely touched my heart.   That was when I fell head over heels and have want to meet him ever since.

I feel that we could get along.  I know it sounds crazy and probably is crazy but I just want to be where he is.  I want to work with him as his assistant.  I want to take care of him and his little dog.  I want to protect him and I want to love him.

 I dream about him all the time. I can’t work because he is on my mind and I can’t concentrate. I see a photo of him or see a movie with him in it and I cry.  Absolutely bawling..  The thought of knowing I will never be with him makes me cry.  Hell, it appears that anything about him brings the waterworks. Yeesh!!

My soul is looking for its other half (it has to be him) and it needs to be soon because I am driving myself insane. Praying for it to stop hasn’t worked.

The sad part is, what would happen if I ever did run into him?  Here I am and what would he see?  He would see an overweight 54 year old, who would rather wear an Adam Ant/Billy Idol concert tee and a pair of jeans than some brand of designer clothes.  Someone who will not wear a dress because she feels as if people are staring in disgust or laughing behind her back. Understand, I’ve been told I’m gorgeous, pretty and so forth but, if you don’t think you are, what they say doesn’t matter. 

How can I meet someone that beautiful and look this awful?  Again, waterworks and an aching heart and soul.

I’ve been desperate enough to tweet him and ask him out but no response.  Messaged him on instagram … nothing.  I really don’t know how this works … other than I feel like a dang stalker and that’s the last thing I want.  Not excluding the fact that it is crazy to cry over someone you’ll never meet (yep, as I type this, crying like a baby … again).

I wanted this to be thought provoking.  I wanted to see if anyone out there understood what I was feeling or felt the same way.

I hope you don’t judge me too harshly and, maybe … if you know Pedro Pascal, show him this.  Maybe he will get curious and check me out.

God bless, y’all.  Be yourselves even if it’s cray cray and don’t give up dreaming.

[stylesrecords]

Going through the worst and hoping for the best of times, Most at times we be living though a f^*K’n Line. Thinking back when a rhyme would get you six shots, str8 up 2 da top, it’s all up in ur a f^*K’n Head. Am never gonna stop until my life is flatline and I couldn’t move ma body who would save them in the lobby!? #UnderstandMe #understandthis #UnderstandLife #KingEli #Peace #1fortheroad #StylesRecords @officialstylesrecords https://www.instagram.com/p/CP7L5T1Bowd/?utm_medium=tumblr

[waylynnpitts]

#Facts #Understandme #communicatewithme #sexisbombbut🤷🏾‍♀️ Reposted from @petty_ass_fresh ON MY MOMMA ‼️‼️ https://www.instagram.com/p/CExG3vLBwPz/?igshid=1wx4u8yirssnf

[giovannirosignoli]

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[danieldayzuko]

Do you understand the words coming out of my mouth? . . #quotethistee #understandme #considerthis #tshirts (at New Orleans, Louisiana) https://www.instagram.com/p/CC4it0ihtCk/?igshid=oz4smff31o4d

[jrodion]

All these #dictionaries and you still couldn’t #UnderstandMe https://www.instagram.com/p/CCTwGTxBfBn/?igshid=pt7wimyzuu0d