#unfun things

[sleepdepravity]

Dude I’m just so tired. I want to hear good news. I want to not be afraid for my job and my mom’s job and the country and social systems and feeling useless and safety and history repeating and public opinion

[sleepdepravity]

I haven't talked about my dad lately and also this is not gonna be what you expect but like, Well first of all I'm understanding better about how he communicates and how he doesn't emote in his speech much which was making it difficult for me to recognize when he was saying something positive and being sincere. It doesn't change the ways he's hurt me before but right now I can actually believe that he has some sense of pride in me Second of all, back when I was really depressed I kept saying it's too late, I can't get a job, I can't do anything with my major, I can't be successful, and my dad kept telling me that it's never too late and I passed that to someone else and only then remembered just how far I've come and he was right, he was really really right. I would have never thought I'd be here with a job and a promotion on the way!!!!! A promotion!!!!! And I'm crying because when I first heard about that I was like "wow thanks" but now I'm realizing how important that is, I forgot about where I was and I took for granted where I am but this place I'm at right now is so much better and I might still hate a lot of things about life but I'm also here and so so much better than before

[sleepdepravity]

malky you're a treasure. you're a really cool person and i value the interactions we have. i hope you feel better but appreciate how much harder that is to do than to say.

uwu thanks,,,,, thank you, i appreciate you,,,,,,

[sleepdepravity]

MalkyTop: Everything about my writing drive feels dead

MalkyTop: Like I know this looks silly to say but I'm not really excited about hurting sanji

Benedict: w h a t

Benedict: okay this is serious

Benedict: who are you and what have you done with malky

MalkyTop: Well it is pretty serious yeah

MalkyTop: But it's a weird thing to be serious

Benedict: yeah

MalkyTop: So it's kinda funny at the same time

[sleepdepravity]

whoo boy i’m feeling ultra depressed

[sleepdepravity]

So I figure I should let you guys know, we were in a huge car accident last night. Like, it felt like our car rolled over type of huge. Everybody's fine, minor injuries. I'm just sore from being knocked about.

[sleepdepravity]

Like maybe this is a weird concept but maybe, let your kid enjoy themselves and decide what they're satisfied with in life?? Like barring extreme circumstances. Because the worst that can happen is your kid, ends up. I dunno. Fucking fired. Because of mbmbam. And what's wrong with that happening? Just support your kid when they're down.

[sleepdepravity]

It's been so long since the last bad dad incident that I got complacent and this new incident just completely blindsided me and I'm still thinking about it when I think I would have brushed it off back when it was really fucking horrible but anyways It's one thing to not be interested in what your kid's interested in, but then he goes beyond that, he's so disgusted in what I'm interested in that he wants to change my interests, he wants to fucking change the things I enjoy because there's apparently a right way to be a successful adult and his image of me right now matches a fucking high school student because he can't fucking imagine a successful respectable adult liking the things I like but like Why do I have to be a respectable adult? Why can't he just accept that I like my shit and maybe he doesn't like it but he can at least respect me as a fucking person and respect that I like it and leave it at that? Why does he think fickin listening to mbmbam is setting me on the path to, I dunno poverty and unhappiness and shit Like I can understand parents being worried about their kids and wanting to intervene in their habits or interests but like... Maybe, just let it play out. When it comes to shit like what fucking piece of media they enjoy. Don't be afraid of failure, let things fail, and then be there to pick them back up again and support them again. That's just assuming that my fuxking success hinges on whether I listen to the news or fuckin mbmbam