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The thing about good people. Not nice people but good people is that they give you chances and chances and chances and benefits of doubt and leeways. They give because they know deeply, how it feels not to have.

But the thing about good people at their limits is that, at their limit, at the threshold of everything that makes them good, they hold the potential to make you feel how it can be if good isn’t good anymore.

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My mother loves flowers and flowers love her. Nature loves her. She’s always been able to make things grow and nurture them to independence.

I never pick flowers because I admire her and always only take ones that have fallen off themselves.

She reminds me to be kind and nurturing. I love her

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Always been a little fascinated with ceilings. I can’t help but look up at something that’s always going to be looking down.

So much of life is chasing that which eludes us. Chasing is futile, yet somehow we evolved to chase. Perhaps, chasing is survival?

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Stand on the outside.

Observe.

There is nothing to be hurt about.

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I dread conversations that I think can be upsetting for another person. This means that more often than not I put myself through intense anxiety about the conversation and procrastinate from having it to hell and back.

Classic people pleaser qualities. There’s a history to this of course. As much as people pleasers are conditioned into the role, I believe brazen people too, are, to a very large extent, pushed to be who they are.

I am learning and reconditioning my behavior and safety nets and coming to understand something very cliché. Open, disappointing conversations are never as bad in reality, as they are, in my head.

You can never hope to please everyone. A very well known fact, but the road to this understanding and eventually imbibing it in my brain is long, hard and uncomfortable.

However, if I do not want repeated experiences of self destruction, I need to take this road and so I am.

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Found scrawled on a bathroom wall.

Inherently most people are so warm. Find warmth, be warmth.

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Irish Potat

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You can make it better. You can build and improve. Things are never perfect immediately.

In fact, things never are perfect and perhaps never will be. But everything that you nurture and value, at least things that are good for you, grow and become.