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A week in...

So it’s been a week into my Cam girl adventure! And I’ve been learning a lo (mostly about social media & where to meet the most people + getting a following). In the past i’ve found an influx of information overwhelming, triggering my anxiety and sending me into the depths of despair. However currently I am feeling FREE!! I feel empowered, I feel supported. I feel like my prior life events have lead me to here, this decision. 

I remember in my early teens, I loved dressing up, posing, modelling in front of the mirror, taking sexy photos. I used to send them to the boys at school. I CRAVED the attention. I needed to feel validated, and in doing this lead me into some sticky situations (but thats a story for another post) I felt shame around being a sexual creature, guilt and shame- and comments from my friends that I took too many photos of myself. Was it jealousy? At the time all I felt was embaressment, and so I hid my desire to photograph myself naked, and I buried that desire beneath a mountain of pain. 

Dealing with the shame around this has been a slow process, but fragment by fragment i’m slowly piecing the pieces together, seeing it as an issue with SOCIETY- not with  SELF. I had to let go of my people pleaser- and fear of judgement. Only then could I truly do this properly. Stepping into this desire, reconnecting with it again with a fresh face, has lifted me, I see it in a new light. I am in control, I am free, I can be myself finally. 

Anyway... that was my daily rant- now down to the week summary. 

I’ve had a couple more Live chats on chaturbate- there is a user called josephandthepussycats who has been very supportive, jumping on to cheer me on, and telling people to follow me, and overall being very encouraging (and not creepy or sly in anyway). You see, those were my fears, having to chat to creeps who don’t respect boundaries and are pushy. But in reality- I’ve had no negative interactions...again I am in complete control- and if someone steps over those boundaries they get booted and blocked from my room! So for me- quite healing and satisfying to be able to do that to anyone who makes me feel uncomfortable. I just hang out with the nice peeps! (and I’m not saying the nice ones don’t have kinky fetishes.... ) And thats the thing- as long as you’re nice and you respect my rules and my time, I am so open minded. Willing to fulfill fantasies for people- be that fishnet stockings, pouring custard on myself? (I saw this on a documentary the other day...)

What i’m saying is I was made to do this, I never thought i’d find myself in an industry that allows me to fulfill MY desires and getting paid for it. 

So YAY!

I caught up with a fellow camgirl, emilynguyen.xo (Insta) today for coffee (i’ve now got a bit of a headache- damn caffeine hangovers!!) and she gave me some wonderful advice for getting started, and we chatted sexy stories. She checked out my cam accounts and told me I was doing all the right things... Heck yes x 

I should sign off now, I’m afraid i’ll keep rambling forever otherwise...

Until next time! 

Nighty night lovers

Harmony x