#unpaint me...

[lyrical-gen1us]

I hate talking about our experience with COCSA. I end up feeling so undermined just because I don't fit the standards of what a victim should be. I feel filthy, disgusting even. The only way I can really describe the feeling is a lasting greasy feeling that won't wash away. His hands around my chest. His lips on my neck. And what makes it all worse is I didn't say no. I didn't say anything, I just stood there. I let it happen.

[lyrical-gen1us]

Sometimes I swear I can still feel his arms wrapped around my chest. It scares me that I somehow remember it so vividly but I can barely recall what I had for breakfast.

[pianiss-imo]

Remaking my intro post, My name is Verso. I will have you know that this is not a roleplay blog but I don't mind asks! Feel free to ask whatever as long as you keep it somewhat family friendly. I am a fictive in a system and prefer to be treated as such.

I use he/they but I honestly don't really care about which you use. Just anything but she/her

Our host's blog is: @originofvirtue

DNI:

No real DNI other than T.R.A.S.H, trans/sysmeds, and people who think it's okay to infantilize me because we're "bodily a minor", just because we're bodily a minor doesn't mean I'm not a grown man.I will also add, if you think it's okay to water down our experience with COCSA, I will kindly ask you to please block don't report.

CW This blog is pretty often going to touch on pretty serious subject matter so I figured I'd add this, anyways. My blog is going to touch on subjects such as: - COCSA - Suicidal ideation - S/H - Emotional Neglect/Abuse

Tags:

#let's carve a path: general posts

#reborn once more...: most likely answering asks. Though I don't receive many # you're doing this...for yourself...: Vent tag #Unpaint me...: COCSA vent exclusive tag, if you're uncomfortable with topics such as this, I reccomend filtering this tag #Fuck-!: Posts that probably contain stuff that Tumblr would dub "mature content" #I'm sorry...about your friend...: Yearning tag #🎵: My posts SPECIFICALLY, we have like four other fictives of my source who drop in every now and then. Just rarely. #🩶: posts regarding...a close friend... Interests(?) - The Outlast Trials - The X-Files - Vocaloids/Pjsk (believe it or not) - Ride The Cyclone - Music in general, I'm a big music nerd.

[lyrical-gen1us]

Why the fuck is COCSA so under represented in media. And even when they do, they rarely ever portray how victims actually act.

[lyrical-gen1us]

Y'know, I feel GREAT knowing our experience with COCSA will almost never be seen as "real" in the eyes of our caretakers

[lyrical-gen1us]

Finally an actual intro post, anyways. I'm Verso. I will mention that this is in now way shape or form a roleplay account, I'm a fictive in a system and I would prefer to be treated as such. I will also note that I'm source aligned, and before you say something along the lines of "Oh but fictives and introjects need to source separate" please. Don't say anything. Just block me and move on with your day.

I use He/They, I don't really care as long as you respect my boundaries I have set.

Content warning for anyone who needs it because my blog specifically is going to touch on some sensitive matters. And before you get mad at me for talking about them. Again, just block me, this is supposed to be my safe space.

Self Harm

Suicidal Ideation

PTSD

COCSA

DNI

I have no real DNI other than, hateful people as a whole, and ESPECIALLY people who are going to undermine our experience with COCSA. This is something that's effected us, especially me and Mac, very deeply. So if you come here with the intention of invalidating our experience you will be blocked. And another big one, if you come here expecting me to be okay with you babying me and treating me as if I was exactly like your 'favourite character's you'll be blocked for that as well.

My interests (for the most part), mind you I'm no better than my sister.

The Outlast Trials

The X-Files

Supernatural

Project Sekai / Hatsune Miku: Colourful Stage & Project Diva Dungeon Crawler Carl PLEASE feel free to ask me about ANY of my interests, I'm very passionate about them and would love to talk to you about it

Tags #reborn once more: Answering asks, feel free to ask whatever I don't care #lets carve a path: just posts in general. #Im sorry...about your friend...: weird gay(?) yearning tag. #You're doing this...for yourself: Vent tag

#Unpaint me...: A COCSA vent exclusive tag, if you're not comfortable with the topic of COCSA I heavily reccomend blocking this tag.

#Fuck-!: questionable material. That's it. #A Painted Melody...: reblogs

#🎵: signoff! #🩶: posts related to someone that I'm extremely close with.

I'll probably add interest tags later, but that's about it for now, I'm deeply sorry that my proper intro took so long to finally make. I've had very little motivation recently and just got it back. #🎼: Outlast Tag #👽: The X-Files Tag #🎹: Supernatural Tag #🎙️: PJSK/PJD Tag #🎶: Dungeon Crawler Carl Tag My backup blog is @pianiss-imo