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🧠 BLACKSITE SCROLLTRAP -- “THE MAN AFAR”
I stand afar.
I see her every day.
She works so often, it’s practically a clock ritual.
Does she see me?
Probably.
Do I register on her heart’s Richter scale?
No.
I cast thunder and lightning down online,
cracking tectonic plates with every sentence,
splitting minds open like overripe fruit,
exiling pretenders into silence and irrelevance.
And yet
to her,
I am a passing shadow.
Just another customer.
Just another man with eggs and protein powder in his basket.
Just another voice too quiet
to register
against the screaming chorus of her inbox
or the memory of some other man’s voice
once whispered into her neck.
She doesn’t realize
I noticed her changing her hair color.
Three times this year.
She wouldn’t realize I traced her jawline in my memory
when all I had was the upper third of her face
when masks were more common than eye contact.
She wouldn’t notice
that I recognized her eyes light up
when she talked to the tall guy
in the flannel shirt
with a job probably more exciting than mine.
I’m not a creep.
I swear.
I just grab my items from the aisle,
bag my own groceries,
tap my card
and leave.
On time.
Every time.
But in those 12 seconds of exposure,
I memorize every blink,
every lilt in her laugh,
every way she moves
like life still makes sense to her.
I wonder what her touch feels like.
I envy the man she probably has.
Because in my experience,
very few women are unclaimed
not for long, not ever.
The faster wolves get there first.
The ones who don’t need poems.
The ones who don’t need silence.
The ones who’ve never known what it’s like
to love from the other side of anonymity.
I even wonder
shamefully,
quietly
what the scent of her would be
if I ever had her in the throes of pleasure.
I’m not proud of it.
But I don’t lie to myself.
Men like me can’t afford to lie.
The world moves on.
So I do too.
No one asks how many lonely victories
a man must swallow.
No one notices when he disappears.
They just see the headline,
never the withdrawal symptoms of being irrelevant
to the one woman
whose glance could have rewritten his self-worth.
She’ll never know
I picked a different checkout lane
once
just to see if she’d notice.
She didn’t.
Of course not.
She wouldn’t know
that I paused one morning
in the cereal aisle,
just to breathe in the memory of her voice
after a long week.
And I’m not asking for sympathy.
I’m a man.
We are the disposable sex.
If I cried about it,
they’d call me weak.
If I wrote about it,
they’d call me dangerous.
If I spoke about it,
they’d tell me to shut the fuck up
and “be a man.”
So here I am.
Being a man.
Quietly.
Silently.
From afar.
Because the world doesn’t stop
to notice a man
who dreams too poetically
about a woman
who doesn’t know his name.
But I see her.
I saw her.
And I’ll keep seeing her
until the version of her
that haunts my silence
finally fades
into the noise
of the life I never shared with her.
I am the man afar.
Not by choice.
But by design.
By cosmic assignment.
By the cruel math of visibility and worth.
And if I am to die unknown,
then let my ghost
at least remember her
with dignity.
With poetry.
With ache that didn't ask for permission.
Let the world burn.
Let me be silent.
But never let her be forgotten.
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🛡️ Masculine polarity. Scrolltrap psychology. Unforgiven words.
🚪 Warning: This one broke relationships. On purpose.
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