#unstable thoughts

[averysillyfellow]

I lowk just shed a tear at the end of Flame's new video 🥺 Cuz wdym uu!flame is actually trying to be a better person now. One thing I am curious about though is what's gonna happen next for uu!flame. I kind of want uu!flame to have a civilization arc. Since every other unstable protagonist had at least one civilization before. And it would be cool to see uu!flame leading instead of following AND hear me out uu!lomedy leads with him too

[lovecrimers]

I feel really stupid asking this but

Is there somewhere like a chat or something I can talk at? I feel really unreasonable and like I’m crazy for being so upset over the season finale but it left me highly unstable and I’m really kind of struggling with my sanity right now?

I know I sound dumb but idk how to explain it. It’s just Cas is and was kind of my lifeline and the main character to me in a show that saved my life so I’m feeling really upset and kind of lost right now? 

I just don’t want to be judged over this but I’m even judging myself.

[arabellaandthenargles]

I just got used to your arms wrapped around me before going to sleep that it gets hard to sleep when you're not beside me. I'm so attached, i don't think I'll ever be okay if you leave. Do you know how much I love you? I hope you do. I hope you know how I crave your presence every minute of everyday. I hope you know how much I love smelling the mixture of your sweat, your breath, and your shirt's smell. I hope you know that everything you do leaves very special marks all over me, physically and emotionally. I can't see past you. You're my present and my future.

[arabellaandthenargles]

it's been a while...

Yet again, I'm sleep deprived.. Oh, hey there, tumblr! You've changed a lot since the last time I logged on on my laptop. Hmm. Even you have changed... I don't really know what I'm planning to write right now. Maybe just rants. --------- "Love you bebe. :*" "no prob. Love you" "okay lang. hahaha mahal kita" "I'm here to lend an ear." "I'm here for you" "andito lang ako" Where have all my friends gone? It would be more relieving if someone answered "they died". or "they didn't survive the apocalypse." or "they were attacked by monsters because they weren't concealed enough by the mist." or even, "they were kissed by dementors" But obviously, they're still alive. I'm just not a part of their lives anymore. They've turned their backs on me. Am I a bad friend? Is it true that I don't take care of people well that's why they end up leaving me? AM I NOT WORTH BEING FRIENDS WITH? Tell me! I want to not give a single fuck about who left, who's leaving, and whoever's coming that'll end up leaving again. But every bit of me breaks and aches, slowly, all at once... everytime someone leaves. Please. Anybody.. If you're gonna leave, might as well take me with you.

[gina145-blog]

My emotions are whack. I honestly feel emotionally unstables sometimes...

Like I can be completely fine and then I will feel like crying my eyes out or binging. Not going to lie the thought of suicide has crossed my mind a few times. I tried once when I was 15 and I would never do that again but the thought was still there. I use to be able to switch off my feelings but now it's like I can't control them. I've noticed that the birth control i'm on can cause mood swings/depression. Not saying it's that by the way. But like i've only been like 'this' since i've been on it. Yet it's the only BC that hasn't given me any painful side effects but this is a pretty big deal. Bleh.