#unviewable

[vilefilth]

I haven’t really paid much mind to the Delta universe(s) that seem to be popping up everywhere. All I knew was that there were a good amount of Gaster alternates responsible for their creation, and that alone was enough to turn me away. The idea that they can do these things just disgusts me... Well, I decided to return to the Void and do a little “search” and found one to spy on. 

I don’t know how long I’ll have access to it, though. I’m going to assume that he is aware and allowing me to view his world for the time being. Maybe it amuses him that some off brand, weakling Gaster is peeking in. I don’t know. Regardless, it annoys me that so many alternates can just pull out a whole damn universe out of nowhere. Frustrating.

Anyway, I viewed it, though I find it difficult to look anywhere else. I’m aware of Kris. I’ve been aware of Kris, their family, their friends, their town and so on and so forth for years, but I want to know more about the world. Are humans in fewer numbers in this world? Any time I try to view any other part of this world, it takes my view right back to the front of Kris’s home.

I know I could just ask for a quick rundown, but to hell with that. I’ll just watch as much as I can and then go about my merry way. Besides, if he wanted to, he could just materialize right here in front of me and start talking... and he obviously isn’t going to do that now. Would rather not listen to some stuck up jerk talk about his prized creation, then turn around and ask why I haven’t done the same before laughing in my face about my apparent shortcomings.

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New chat rooms. Can try to be involved. Therapy chat with other Gaster alternates and a few non-Gaster alts. Helpful so far. Vials is there. Like him. Not sure about the others but can’t let it be obvious I dislike them already. Other one I have no idea how I joined. Whatever. Could be interesting.

fucking patchses fukc

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5 cartons of eggs, cereal (sweet), milk, dish soap

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IT HAS STRINGS

[liberalsarecool]

There is no precedent to support this claimed unreviewability, which runs contrary to the fundamental structure of our constitutional democracy.

Federal Judges, rejecting Dump’s emergency motion to reinstate his toxic #MuslimBan.

They added, “It is beyond question that the federal Judiciary retains the authority to adjudicate constitutional challenges to Executive action.”

In short, f*ck you.

[vilefilth]

💭

THOUGHTS...

SMARTER THAN ME.

ATTRACTIVE EVEN WITHOUT A FACE.

SHY.

POWERFUL.

COULD EAT ENTIRE UNIVERSES

WORLDS

IN A BLINK

AND YET HE IS FEARFUL OF HIS OWN SHADOW IT SEEMS.

WONDER IF PEACHES WOULD DO THE SAME THINGS HE DOES.

WOULD BE FUN...

LOVELY...

[vilefilth]

💭 -STRIKINGSKELETONSIEGE

THOUGHTS...

LOUDER

LESS INHIBITED THAN COMET.

...FEEL LIKE HE IS DRIFTING TOO FAR OFF INTO THINGS HE SHOULDN'T BE INTO

THEN SUDDENLY TURNS AROUND AND DOES SOMETHING NICE.

FEEL LIKE I SHOULD INTERACT MORE

BUT FEEL LIKE HE HAS CERTAIN EXPECTATIONS

OF ME.

WOULD HE NOT LIKE IT IF I WERE MORE SERIOUS THAN USUAL?

SOME OF THE THINGS HE POSTS WEIRD ME OUT.

PAPYRUS POSTING THINGS LIKE THAT IS JUST ODD TO ME.

NEED TO WORK THIS OUT OF MY SYSTEM AND ACCEPT

THAT THEY ARE ALL DIFFERENT.

SMARTER THAN ME DESPITE HIS ACTIONS THAT MAY SAY OTHERWISE.

[vilefilth]

💭

I’m annoying. Am I annoying? I hope I’m not annoying. I feel like I’m a constant annoyance in the cafe chat... Sunny might just have me in the chat out of pity since my circle of friends is so limited. I want to be closer friends with Sunny, but I’m always so afraid I’ll just drive him away.

He’s such a great monster. I wish I could be as great as he. It’s no real surprise though... He is one of many Papyruses. Papyri? Whatever. He’s just cool and I can’t compare. Does he even consider himself as one though? Does he even pass off as one? It’s hard to tell. He’s the same, yet different.

[vilefilth]

Journal 1

Don’t know how many days I’ve been here. Memory is inadequate. So much back and forth to keep Peaches at least a little happy and at ease. I think he believes I may die again. Not going to happen.

So far I haven’t encountered anything out of the ordinary in the wilds. I think I may have heard some movement from humans not too far off, but they didn’t seem to notice my location so that’s a relief. Speaking of humans, I finally got to talk to one a few days back. My interactions prior to this one were limited, but he remained in my presence long enough for me to spend some quality time with him and ask a few questions. He calls himself Hubert, and he gave off a peculiar, yet familiar stench. It wasn’t just his body odor, it was his overall being. He used magic, and it was definitely not the type I’d expect humans to be able to wield. Maybe in games, but as far as I can tell, this world is not such. I will have to see if I can break the veil and see if there is any code lingering behind it at some point.

He was interested in learning my magics, but I declined. I’m not a teacher, and I don’t think I trust him to use it responsibly even if I could teach him. I could bombard his body with it, but who knows what would happen if I did that. I was tempted to do it for the sake of observation, but I resisted. I wanted to test everything this stoic human had. Was he really that essential to this world? What would happen if he was removed? Would everything come crashing down?

I really don’t know what has gotten over me. After the whole God debacle, I’ve been thinking terrible thoughts. It’s uncharacteristic and very worrying. I do not want to send any world into chaos, and yet, I do. Words brush against my mind, calling to me. They used to call for my return to the Void. Now they suggest I change the course of this world, say that I could RESET if needed. I don’t think I can even do that... Or maybe I can. I’ve been lazy when it comes to familiarizing myself with my powers and it’s limits. I’m not a God anymore, but these words seem to regard me as one.

I want them to stop. At least the soft beckoning to the Void was something I could ignore. This is not. I will continue to resist though.

[vilefilth]

joun2

Though I studied well within the Void, it still startled me when the beast’s corpse shifted into a human’s broken body. To think these creatures were once human is both fascinating and terrifying. Oh well. IT fou☝☟❄ well. It was not enough, But I admired it’s ✞✋👍✋Ous ferocity. Spilling it’s blood was cathartic.

❄☟✋💧 ☹✌☠👎 🕈✋☹☹ 💧☜☜ 🏱☜✌👍☜ ✌☠👎 ☞☼☜☜👎⚐💣 💧⚐⚐☠ ☜☠⚐🕆☝☟📬 🕈⚐☜ ❄⚐ ❄☟⚐💧☜ 🕈☟⚐ 💧❄✌☠👎 ✋☠ ❄☟☜ 🕈✌✡📬

[vilefilth]

JOURNAL 2

I heard something that piqued my interest last night as I was drifting off. A scream. A roar? It had the sound of both anguish and anger. Perhaps this world does have it’s own monsters. Likely of the bestial variety, but I will have to find it and see this thing myself. I will head out now to see if I can find the source.