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[valerianaruna]

I love how the sky and the sun stick together 

I love how they could consistently keep themselves together

I love how I hope that we could be the same too 

I love how you love the sun

I love how I love the sky

I love how we love each other

I just hope that what I love is not a false hope 

[valerianaruna]

Falling in love like the rain

Some people said, falling in love is a wonderful thing in life, some said that falling in love is like a double edge sword. It could bring you happiness, and on the other hand, it could stab and left you painful scars....Some said you need to have at least a reason to love someone, some said, there’s no exact reason to love. You just fall, and love. That’s all.

I wonder how people nowadays spend their relationship. I wonder how people maintain them. Enhancement of technology indeed help a lot of people out there to be able to have a better way in communicating with each other. However, it just so ironically that those enhancement have destroyed feelings and relationship with others. 

Feelings and everything is just as simple as “typing”, “click send” and relationship ends just as simple as “remove/ delete”, “click yes” and voila, everything is just ended that way. 

People got married because of money, status, and so on, not because they appreciate each other’s entity. It just because they appreciate and embrace those wealth and social status. I wonder if that kind of marriage worth. Of course, physically, people will see it really worth it. I don’t deny the fact that money is really important and it is indeed important to prolong our life in this world. It’s essential. I didn’t deny this fact at all.  I need money, but I don’t want to make money as my life goal. I’m struggling my best to prove to others that happiness lies in hard work and when we love sincerely. It’s hard. I know. But I believe the result will be worth it if I could overcome everything nicely. 

I want to fall in love like the rain. It just fall... sincerely fall.. 

As someone who is really skeptical about relationship and love like me, honestly speaking, I couldn’t really believe myself that I could once again give the chance to my heart to believe again. Really..I’m also amazed with myself about this. It’s not easy.. to heal a heart with scar. Even if it’s healed, the scar will always be there...However I don’t want to be bounded by the past. 

[valerianaruna]

Hello Everyone it’s Runa

Time flies, season change, and everyone’s heart keeps changing over seconds. How’s everyone doing? I hope that everyone is doing fine. It has been a year since the last time I posted my blog post. I just noticed that it has been that long time since the last time I wrote something here and I kinda miss it these days lately. Therefore I am writing now. 

Life goes on. It has been quite a long time that I’ve been thinking and being bounded in such a difficult attachment, but finally I could breath a little bit.. I have made one of life’s big decision that will definitely determine how my life will go from now till the time I die. Everyone who knows about my decision might look down at me and saying that I’m quite stupid, but I have decided to have a faith on myself, on my decision, that this is not a wrong one. Have you ever face similar situation too?

However, now matter what, I’m feeling grateful with my current situation. I’m could say that I’m going to try our best to protect those that dear to me. 

[valerianaruna]

This is the first time I tried to make a mask, so I'm really don't have any experience dealing with mask before, but I hope this is not so bad! XD 

any comments/ opinion are highly appreciated! :D

As usual, just drop me comments/ tag me/ tumblr fanmail! ;)  

with love,  Nammyohorengekyo, valeriana runa 

[valerianaruna]

Starting from now on... 18.08.2014

Dear everyone, it has been a while since the last time I updated my blog post, isn’t it? A lot of feelings and activities overlap with each other during these last few months, but I’m still doing fine and for those who worrying about me or wondering how I am doing and for those who always supporting me through your words and prayers, thank you, really thank you so much for all of your concern, I’m doing fine. 

It feels like I have found myself again through my love for art, music, and for this world. Lots of people said that it would be better for me to go through the life of ordinary people, work in a company, meet someone rich, and got married with a wealthy guy. Well, I didn’t say that I don’t want to have a good life, however, it isn’t the thing that I want to do. I know that lots of things need money, money is needed for living, but there are lots of wonderful things that cant be bought by money. I realize that my heart is all about art, music, and my love towards stories and this world. It’s not easy, but I’m going to walk down into this path. I will not give up on what I love and I also would love to share my love for everyone to feel. 

I traveled to Australia last month and spend a week there. Lots of feelings overflowing, but it was quite a good experience to see a glance of Australia. I still love Netherlands more though. I have left a piece of my heart in Netherlands and it will be forever be a place that I love. 

I need to go now. I will update more later. 

in addition, I would love to say that no matter how many time passes, KOKIA music and presence still mean a lot for me. thank you for creating such a wonderful music and also being such a lovely presence. very inspiring. 

[valerianaruna]

I'm going to be okay.. ^^

Actually these few days lately, I feel pain in my left hand. It has been quite some time, but no one knew bout this yet. I just dont want to make other people worry about me too much (＞＜) Me myself don’t even know the reason why yet. I thought perhaps it’s only temporarily and nothing bad is going to happen. The pain was gone yesterday, but today it starts again and I could say, it even worse than few days ago.

I’m currently doing a scrap book for upcoming youth event next week and sometimes it feels painful even just to grab/ re arrange the paper, but okay. I hope I’ll feel better soon. 

I’m going to be okay~ so don’t worry~ 

but perhaps, I need to take a good care of my hand starting from now on. and if this continues, I will consider to tell my parents about this and see~ 

Take care  valerianaruna

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Hello June 2014

Konnichiwa~ it has been a while since the last post. 

I don't really have time to post anything these days lately, and sorry for my late response to your email >_< I will be quite busy in these few months, so I might not be able to give immediate response. 

Thank you so much for your lovely postcard from London and Japan, Jeramy and Mizumi chan! I have received both of them and I love them so much! Thanks again for your kind and warm messages for me! >_< 

I hope that everyone is doing well, and for me myself, I'm doing fine too. There are problems and dilemma here and there sometimes, but I can overcome those stuffs, so I'm fine. I'm still struggling to be consistent and focus in doing stuff ^_^ 

Few days ago, I went to a place called Ciater & Bandung in West Java, Indonesia with my family, and it was a nice place. 

There is a natural hot spring in Ciater and it was really relaxing to be there~ 

and of course lots of foods! <3 Food is loveeeeeeee (>w<)

and a cute coconut cup for an orange coconut ice! <3 ah, Cute cup! <3

and I also went to several clothing stores with my mom and sister, took some photos, but I kinda love the color of this skirt ( I didn't buy it though, it's too colorful for me! XD). It seemed really cheerful! 

Oh yes, one more thing. If any of you remember that last 1.5 years I did wrote some short story collection called "Lynaru's Confession", I've been postponed the continuation of that short story until now. I do think about it several times, and I finally decided to start to write about it again when I have time. I already had some ideas in my mind, but I haven't got any chance to type it down. hehe 

But I surely will! 

Okay! That's all~ thank you for reading and~ 

take care!  Nammyohorengekyo,  valerianaruna 

[valerianaruna]

Goodbye March and April, Hello May

Konbanwa minna san, this is Runa again. It has been quite sometime since the last time I wrote or update anything in tumblr isn’t it?

There were lots of things have happened during March and April. In short, I could say that I’m doing fine. It just there are things to improve here and there, my habit, personality, skills, and stuffs. Well, life itself is an neverending struggle to be a better person anyway, don’t you think so?

Some people here might know that I had my birthday on March. Thank you so much for kind letters and gifts from you guys. Love them so much. I’ll treasure them forever. Thank you so much for remembering my birthday and gave me such a warm wishes.

Entering another year, means that I need to be more mature than last year. “I need to be a better woman with full of kindness, sincerity, honesty, and knowledge”, with this thought I step into my age of 23.

As for my music progress, I did composed some songs these days lately. I will surely share them with you guys here when I could have time to do a bit better recording. I love to sing and express my feelings through songs even though I’m not good at singing. I remembered the time when I was in Netherlands, it was a painful moment when I couldn’t express myself through my music since I didn’t really have access to piano. Some people out there go out for party with friends to calm themselves when they feel insecure, but for me, music is one of the way I could trully express myself, my feelings, my worries, in a form of melody and words. That’s why, eventhough I used to run away quite often from music, I could start to feel that music is just so important for me and I couldn’t live without it.

For my piano exam preparation, there were times when I was down due to various reasons. I feel anxious. Sometimes a bit lack of confident. Being worry here and there. Thinking too much. Fear. Those feelings sometimes covered me into the darkness, but everytime I cheer and talk to myself, ”you need to be strong, Runa. You can do it. Don’t stress yourself out. Do your best, as what you always encouraged others to do so. Believe in yourself, add your hard work and just try wholeheartedly with full of sincerity and stop thinking or worrying too much.” Then I could feel better and gain more spirit to strive again without running away from music anymore. Also thank you for family and those special friends who believe in me and keep supporting me in various ways. Thank you so much again. I am surely not going to give up.

For my work, as some of you have known, I’m not really keen of working in the office, but then I know that I should and it’s best for me to master the work. Sometimes due to the dislike feeling, I don’t really put good focus and concentration to learn new stuff in work, I slacking off. As the result, I became really careless and not having a good responsibility, which are bad. Now, this is May, and I want to change this thoughts of mine. I want to truly learn to love my job and try to learn it more seriously and wholeheartedly. To really learn to love it sincerelly. I will try my best on this too!

Oh yes, I did went to Inacraft 2014, one of a big art exhibition in here. It was tiring since the area was quite big, but it was really enjoyable for me to see lots of art stuffs and handcraft and dresses. Lovely moments.

Goodbye March and April, hello May, and I wish you guys good luck and best wishes. All the best for everything and thank you for reading this post.

Special note for Mizumi: I hope you enjoy your trip at Japan now and be happy and be safe for the entire trip. Miss you load. andddd enjoy the KOKIA concert! Let’s go together to watch her another concert someday somewhere

Okay then, I will call it a day, May has come and it means another month for me to walk forward again. Will update again in another chance

Take care, With love and peace Nammyohorengekyo, valerianaruna