Almost one year ago I meet someone who I fell head over heals in love with. No one had ever made me as happy as they did. We were in love, which sadly caused them to get kicked out by there ex. After that they were forced to move back to Maine but yet we stayed together. I remember the night I dropped you off. We stood outside hugging and crying because we never knew when we would see each other again. It wasn't long tho until we decided to have you move down here to Florida so we could be together. We were gonna stay with my parents until you had a job and we could get an apartment. That plan fell through but we stayed strong together and figured things out. All seemed well, yeah we fought every now and then but besides that we were happy together. Then one day I caught you cheating on me. When we would fight you'd leave for days saying you were alone but you were with him. Even after that I forgave you and took you back, I loved you. Doing so tho caused me to lose everything. My family, my friends, they all left me. We struggle with money but somehow make it through. We both have mental illnesses which makes it much harder for us to get alone especially after everything that has happened. But every time there's a problem you leave. You've been gone this whole weekend. All I can think is you are off cheating again. On your laptop you are on Meetme. You tell me you don't like sexual things but you watch a lot of porn I can see. You won't answer your phone for me, you won't even talk to me in person. I have no phone anymore, legally can't drive, and rely heavily on you for assistance. But we rely on each other don't we. You not as much on me clearly because you keep leaving me. And cheating on me. I want you back so bad but I know that I shouldn't take you back. The best option for me is to end my life. My problems would be over but I want to see the person I'm madly in love with one last time. But you won't give me that. You act like you loved me but how could you. How could you love me if after cheating I take you back then you go on dating sites? I trusted you with everything and you destroyed me and ripped my heart out so many times. I'm sorry I'm bipolar. I'm sorry I'm angry and that my life sucks making me angrier. When you leave tho and ignore me, knowing you are the only person I have left in my life, it makes me anger worse. All I want is to talk to you but I can't because you won't answer me, come back to talk to me, or let me know where you are. Last time I trusted you when you left because I never thought you'd cheated. But you did, now it's all I expect. Maxwell Jarrett Rogers, I love you so much. You were my everything and my only thing. I would have ripped out my own heart if that would have made you happy. My life is ruined and you don't care and never will. Thanks so much for that my love, I hate you for everything you have done to me. But what sucks worse is for some damn reason I still love you. If I decided to stay alive tho I'd need you to help me but you won't, so the only option I have left is to end it all. No one would even know or care. Goodbye max, I love/loved you so much. I would have never cheated on you like you did to me. I would never leave you for days on end like you do to me. And I don't make up lies about you like you do about me. Goodbye Maxwell..
