sorry for the inactivity part 2 electric boogaloo
sryy for keeping this acct inactive i have not read manga in a yr. so i dont have manga to make mangacaps of ! shock !!! i might get back to this whole manga coloring/mangacapping thing someday again when i am into manga again (?) but for now i guess we are in indefinite hiatus huh !!! (though i might yell and upload old caps of tybw when the tybw anime comes out.)
ok now serious !!! im also starting college soon if i pass entrance exams so i guess my life is finally about to begin. i never really thought about my dreams before beyond a simple concept. i thought i wanted to be a writer and leave a small mark upon a world, and i never really had time to write anyways! and at some point i wanted to be in theater (which i was, but i never attended club meetings ??????? )
i dont have the energy to upload art or writing, let alone finish it... and it sucks because i thought this was what i wanted! i wanted to share a piece of my mind to a world. at least, that was my dream.........
so the past few days, trying to remember why i am struggling with school, or even attempting to get into college, i realized im a useless human being who doesnt even have dreams, not even remembering the dreams i dream up at night when i sleep.. ive lived the past years of my life thinking that i need to have a dream to continue living, i need to be something someday. but then i thought, i dont know if i will ever amount to something even after this. and that made me very sad. right now, even, im just rotting away in my house playing video games, reading books. i have college entrance exams next monday, and i havent studied, thinking why do i even deserve to study when i dont have a dream?
but now i realized its ok if i dont have dreams! i know that sounds really bleak. but i promise its not. its ok if you havent figured out what you want to do yet, you know ?
and its ok if i dont become anything. its ok to simply live life without a dream. the meaning of life to me is simply living. thats it haha !!
this was really just supposed to be an indefinite hiatus announcement but since i made it longer than intended and added a bunch of other things anyways might as well say stan SB19