I had a weird wish just now that I wanted to share but am a bit afraid it may bring me some hate. Either way, here it is. I was reading about animal rehabilitation centers and certain places that promote wildlife protection and awareness, and saw how most of these kinds of places take animals that otherwise wouldn't survive in the wild like permanently disabled ones and things like that... And I kinda wish they had something like that for people. I always feel like such a burden and annoyance because I can't do the same things as able neurotypical people can. All that stress and hate, even from family, makes everything so much worse. I just wish there was some safe haven where I and people like me could go where we wouldn't have to deal with that. Institutions cost money that I can't afford and hospitals aren't any better with that. Just somewhere where i could escape and no longer be in the way. Maybe even be seen as a positive thing that needs protecting and not constant ridicule and questioning. The animals in those sanctuaries don't have to pay bills and managed day to day situations (or I guess in animal terms, worry about being killed by a more abled predator. Or just nature), they're safe... I just wish I felt safe... Maybe that's just me not handling the world very well right now medically, mentally, or just emotionally in general, but honestly who doesn't want a perfect utopia where care is abundant and stress is very low. I know that even though I'm disabled and doing my best that I'm not the things others imply or say but... Its hard for it not to get to me I guess... Why couldn't I have just been born a mentally disabled pretty boa or something.