Better or Worse ? | Chapter 14
A tv movie marathon was playing in the background. Harry & I have been quiet this whole time. I honestly didn’t think it would be awkward. Our only conversation so far was ‘can you pass the glue ?’ ‘yeah, sure’.
Our model was coming nicely. At least there was no mess.
I was fixing one of the parts of the model, & we both flinched a little, when we touched, since he was reaching to fix another part.
“Allison, what are we doing ?”, Harry said, sighing. My face froze a little. I wasn’t ‘Allie’ anymore ?
“Our project.”, I said, bitterly. I glued another part to the model. “We haven’t talked. It’s like you’re ignoring me.” “I’m not ignoring you.”
“Yeah, cause your tone of voice is proving that so nicely.”, he said. I finally looked at him, but I couldn’t read him. I didn’t know if he was upset, frustrated, disappointed, or just plain sad.
“It’s just ..”, I started.
“The kiss ?”, he said, looking at me. I blushed, & looked away towards the model again. I tweaked it a little, ignoring his question. But, I’m pretty sure he’s smart enough to know my response.
“I’m sorry, if it was out of line, Allie. We can pretend it never happened-”, Harry said, looking anxious. Like if that wasn’t what he wanted, but probably what he thought I wanted to hear which is bloody ridiculous. Cause that is not what I want at all.
“I don’t want to bloody act like it never happened.”, I said, sounding a little rude. But, it was the honest truth. I don’t want to pretend we never kissed. I don’t want to pretend it didn’t matter. That’s why I hate it when Zayn acts like that. When he keeps to himself. I want to confront what happened to let it out of my system. I go insane when I keep so many things inside.
“Then, what do you want to do ? Cause I’m freaking confused.”, Harry said. I finally read his voice. It wasn’t anger. It was frustration.
“I don’t know, alright ? It was just in the moment, I guess.”, I said. I hoped he heard the untruth in my words. It was a great moment, but it wasn’t just that. Harry was a great guy, & I had to admit maybe something was there.
“Just in the moment ?”, Harry asked, seeming hurt but hid it w. a bit of anger.
“I don’t know, Harry! Dammit.”
Before he opened his mouth, I interrupted. No way we were going to fight now.
“Well, fine. Then, let’s just forget it!”, I said, frustrated as well. I had to admit, Harry has been on my mind lately. He has been a lot. But, I didn’t know what to do. Then, it came to me.
I had to do it.
I had to feel it again. I had to know if it was great..
He noticed my eyes wander to his lips, & took the hint.
He kissed me.
It was a passionate kiss, but it soon turned sweet.
I pulled away, & our foreheads were touching.
“Do you really want to forget that ?”, he said. I smiled a little to myself. But, of course he would see it, being so close to my face.
“I’ll take that as a no.”, he said, grinning. I backed away, but I was definitely sitting closer to him now.
We were cuddling, but didn’t say a word. Words weren't used. They weren't needed. We liked eachother. That was that. What words did we need ?
We simply watched the movie, & I honestly felt so secure. His warm arms revealed muscles against my skin, as they were wrapped around me. My head lay on his chest, his chin on top of my head.
I could feel him smiling.
We watched the movie, & made a joke about everything that happened. ‘Hey, did you see that guy in the background ?’ ‘Yeah, he looks like he was stalking that guy’
It was a nice feeling.
“I like you.”, Harry said. I smiled to myself.
“I like you too.”, I said, quietly. But, based on the way his face moved into a smile, he still heard me.
"Will you go out with me?"
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I slipped on my pajamas, & slipped into my bed. I was still smiling. My answer was obvious.
He may seem like a player type of guy, but he can be really sweet.
Today was just great.
Tomorrow would be better. Only because I know, Harry's actually mine.
And I'm actually Harry's.
I pictured tomorrow. I imagined people’s reactions. I imagine the one or two people that would actually say, ‘I knew it!’. I imagined all of the girls that were absolutely in love w. Harry, & their reaction.
It’s quite funny how I’ve always pinned him down as the player type.
Then, it came to me.
Shit. I forget to tell Zayn.
I checked my phone, & I had a text from Zayn.
Zayn: Hey x
Crap. I never responded. I didn’t even check my phone, while w. Harry.
I was about to text him, but my door opened.
Trey walked in the room.
“You alright ?”, he said w. a small smile on his face. He probably just got back from clubbing, & saying good night to me. “Yeah.”, I said, returning the smile.
“Well, sleep well, love.”, he said, w. the same smile. His accent thick. Just because I didn’t get an accent doesn’t mean he didn’t. “You too!”, I said, as he closed the door.
I pulled my covers closed, turned off the lamp by my bed, & put my phone on the drawer.
I’ll just tell him tomorrow.
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“IT’S TIME TO GET UP, ALLISON!”, someone screamed in my ear.
“Ugh, go away, Zayn.”, I said, trying to push the face away, while burying my face deeper into the pillow.
“It’s Trey, dumbfuck.”, Trey said, jokingly. “Ugh, go away, Trey.”, I said, pulling my covers closer.
“Get up! Zayn is waiting downstairs, while Mom is chattering to him like there’s no tomorrow.”, Trey said. I opened my eyes. “Oh god.”, I said, getting up, rubbing my eyes.
Trey left, I got dressed, & went down. Sure enough, Zayn, Trey, & Mom were sitting there talking enjoying toast together.
“Come on, Zayn!”, I said. “I’ll tell you the rest later, Zayn.”, I heard my mom say to him. What was she saying this time.
Zayn nodded & grinned, then we headed towards the car. We sat in our seats, & he drove. “What were you & my mom talking about ?”, I said.
“Your mom was telling me about us when we were little.”, he said, grinning. “Seriously ? What did she say ?”, I said.
“She said, that our old treehouse is still somewhere in between the park & the woods. She told me how we were crazy to go there by ourselves.”, Zayn said, still grinning. I laughed at the memory. I remember.
Zayn & I were playing by the park, by our tree. Our tree was like a place for us to meet, play, & hang out. So many memories were there. The first time we went by it, Zayn & I just met, so he was trying to prove he was ‘macho’. He climbed the tree, but ended up falling. I broke his fall. It hurt a lot, but now that I look back at it, it was a funny memory.
Anyways, since we always played by the tree, Zayn’s dad decided to build a treehouse there since me & Zayn have been begging for one since we saw the ‘Bridge to Terabithia’ movie together. Our moms thought it was crazy though. For us to be alone all the time in between the woods & the park. It was a pretty private place. Our moms finally gave in, when they discussed how we were going to be alone, & how a romance could spark. That’s when the whole ‘hey-in-law!’ thing started. Good times.
Before I knew it, we parked in the school parking lot. My stomach flipped as Zayn turned the engine off. Today, Harry & I were going to be shown as a couple.
“Oh wait, Zayn!”, I said, grabbing his arm, before he got out of the car. “Yeah ?”, he said, sitting back down. “So, I forgot to tell you, me & Harry are … kind of .. a thing.”, I said, w. a smile slowly easing on my face after every pause.
Zayn showed a tight smile. “Wow, that’s great. I hope you two are happy together.”
I smiled in return. “Thanks. I’m just so nervous, Zayn. It’s an exciting feeling.”
“Don’t worry about it, Allie. It’ll work out.”, he said, w. a wink. I smiled, we both got out of the car. But, I swear that I heard Zayn mutter to himself ‘wonder what happened yesterday’. I pretended like I didn’t hear anything.
We walked to our group, & Harry beamed when he saw me.
“Hey.”, he said, smiling. “Hey.”, I said, giving him a peck on the lips. Our friends eyed us as they saw our extra-friendly greeting.
“They’re just dating. Don’t make a fuss.”, Zayn hissed at them. Louis put his hands up in defense.
“Aw, you guys are dating ?”, Niall said. “I just said that.”, Zayn said, seeming annoyed.
“That’s so sweet.”, Danielle said, smiling. I smiled back. Harry put his arm around my waist, bringing me a little closer to him. I looked at Harry, & he smiled down at me.
Ring.
“Come on, babe. We’ve got to go to homeroom.”, Harry said, smiling. I nodded, mesmerized by those eyes. Who knew as of now they’re mine ?
We walked to homeroom, hand-in-hand. It was a nice feeling. People looked at us, gasping. I heard some ‘I-knew-it!’s, I heard ‘aw!’s, I heard some ‘no!’s.
I smirked as some girls looked at me in envy, when he pulled me by the waist into homeroom. We sat down in our seats, as Liam & Harry started conversing.
Something was missing.
“Oh my gosh, Allie. You didn’t tell me you were dating Harry!”, she said, w. a smile. But, her smile was different. Not physically though.
“Yeah. We just started dating yesterday.”, I said, w. a genuine smile. “Well, I wish you guys luck!”, she said, flashing a smile, before she went to her usual seat.
Soon, Zayn walked through the door.
Shit.
I forgot me & Zayn always walk to class together.
How could I forget ?
Damn, Harry, & his perfect eyes.
I was going to apologize, but Zayn sat down in his seat, already chatting away w. Harry & Liam. I stayed quiet, as if he just rejected me. I guess I deserved it, though.
Our homeroom teacher walked in, & told us to be quiet. It wasn’t enough obviously. But, they simply returned to their computer probably doing attendance.
“So, Harry, you didn’t tell me you were dating Allison ?”, Liam said, smiling. “Yeah, I am.”, Harry said, w. the cute smile that brought out his dimples. “Zayn, shouldn’t we talk alone ? & let the lovebird be ?”, Liam said, smiling.
“I guess.”, Zayn muttered. Was he seriously that pissed off just because I didn’t walk w. him to homeroom ?
They talked, & Harry & I talked.
“I just love your dimples, Harry. Oh my gosh.”, I said, grinning. He laughed. “Thank my mom for deciding to squeeze my cheeks as a baby long enough for that to happen.”
I laughed. “I’ll definitely keep that in mind!”
“Aw, you have a cute laugh.”, Harry said. “Harry Styles, you are such a flirt.”
He laughed.
“It’s called giving compliments!”, he said. “Whatever you say.”, I said, grinning.
Ring.
“C’mon, babe. We have geography.”, Harry said, smiling. “Alright. Bye, Liam! Bye, Zayn!”, I said, walking out the door hand-in-hand w. Harry. The sad part, is I didn’t give either of them even a sideways glance.
I was too busy w. Harry, & his dazzling smile.
I mean, they’ll understand.
I’m in that honeymoon phase.