It wasn’t the first time that this had happened and Aesin was sure that it wouldn’t be the last either. It could be blamed on his young spirit, on his dark past, the loss of loved ones... There were many reasons. But for her - any reason for someone to destroy themselves shouldn’t be good enough. She had felt that feeling before, herself. And she lost everything and gained something. Something she didn’t really want, but at least she was still alive. Or half alive. But this wasn’t about her and her words would most likely fall on deaf ears anyways. Yuchan was still her leader, even though... His actions weren’t always... Calculated.
To her the young man seemed more impulsive than anything, but it almost seemed like a natural reaction to everything that had happened to him in the past. So, deep inside of her she felt a little bit bad for the youngling. Of course she often had to listen to him slur mean words about her in a drunk stupor, but she just wrote it off as ‘he didn’t mean that’. After all, she was a vampire indeed, but she still did her service for the Nightbane.
And that’s why she always tried to keep an eye on the leader, making sure he wouldn’t lose his head in some meaningless fight or just completely destroy his liver in one night.
And this time was similar to the other times - she had found Yuchan slumped over on one of the couches, her sensitive nose catching up the smell of alcohol. With a sigh she retreated into the big kitchen, filling up a glass with water and walking back to the couch. Aesin eyed the male for a bit, then set down the glass on the table with a ‘thud’ loud enough to wake him.
Then she reached into her pocket, pulling out a small object, showing it to him: In her hand was a ripped out vampire fang she had gotten a while ago. That vampire had rather long fangs, so she had decided to keep one for herself as it seemed like a curiosity to her.
She thinks for the moment for that question is a very difficult one, once she doesn’t know what to choose out of all the times she worked hard for something. She has done so many things in her life… All the majors she studied for, all the jobs she got and all the work she has done for the Noctis Clan, she needs a moment to find the one thing she worked for the most. The one thing she put the most effort into.
“Um, I worked really hard to get my mother’s pride. I have always been closer to my father than to my mother… So it was really hard to impress her, I had to compete with my older sisters and it was very difficult, once three of them were already married, had their children, and I was mostly interested in music and all types of literature, paintings, art in general. My mother wanted me to find a husband, get married and have children just like my sisters… But I didn’t.” She says, never making eye contact with Yuchan, but she does flash a small smile before she continues talking.
“I did everything I could to impress her: I played in big famous theaters with important musicians, I met famous poets, I had great connections with important people and yet, it was not enough. But it changed when I got the job at the Noctis Clan. She looked so proud of me, like working for the clan and doing something to help our species made up for the fact that I wasn’t interested in building a family back then.”
