one of my biggest issues is that while i am an honest researcher at heart which means i am always up to changing my mind if presented with sufficient evidence (moreover i will seek out alternative points of view myself to see how my current opinions hold against them) i also a) am easily triggered by Certain subjects which makes it hard for me to research the topic altogether and b) just unironically loathe that guy named l. cornelius sulla felix. it's hard for me to read anything positive on him because i am afraid of finding out that maybe i have greatly overestimated the traumatic effect his reforms had on rome and underestimated the positive influence saud reforms had and then everything i have ever said on the subject was stupid and futile and so is my hatred but i cannot get it out of my system at this point so it makes me a stupid hypocrite. genuinely free me











