Making Mistakes
Fathers Day was the hardest time I’ve had staying on the vegan path. My mom made all my favorite carnivore dishes since all my dad’s favorite meat dishes are mine. I wasn't planning on telling my two older half brothers that I’ve recently turned vegan because I don’t like occasions or dinner events to be about me. Yeah I’d like everyone to be more opened minded to a vegan lifestyle but I’m all about that psychological delivery. Unfortunately my mom didn’t have that in mind and told my half-brothers. It sucked cause I don’t want to have people around me question themselves at celebrations like that. Whatever now.
What was most frustrating was my brother Julian telling me that I couldn’t eat the cookies. I was like “What the F*&%, give me a cookie B#$%” but then he informed me that in the ingredients list it had animal products (whole eggs). I’m not going to lie and say I had no idea. I did. My mind was blocking it out and I was acting as if I didn’t know. If it wasn’t for him I would of ate those tasty looking cookies that everyone around me was enjoying and I LOVE LOVE LOVE COOKIES! I’m known to eat the whole damn package of milk chocolates cookies. I need to go buy some vegan friendly sweets. There’s no break from this lifestyle. I was thinking maybe I should be a sacrificial vegan. But what the fuck is that? My carnivore spirit is making shit up to give in.
My brother continued to tell me that he believed in what I was doing, which made me feel like that veganism was actually having positive effects on my carnivore family. So while I ate my rice, mixed with peas, and vegetables I thought of all the other vegans having a difficult Father’s Day watching their love ones enjoying the meals they once enjoyed. So it helped me stay sane and not give in.
But guess I still failed. I’m not giving myself any excuses and confessing. I ate macaroni salad. Macaroni salad has mayonnaise in it which uses egg. So way to F#$% it up Charly. After not eating my moms homemade shrimp cocktail, Filipino Chicken bitter-melon soup, bbq honey chicken, and oatmeal cookies I go and eat macaroni salad. I guess it’s not that bad since it’s not meat but I know there’s people out there that bettet prepare for celebrations like this and come prepared with their vegan dishes ready not just for them but for everyone so something like this doesn’t happen. Success comes into preparation and I need to better prepare if I am to keep myself from making mistakes like this again. Wish this post was more positive. Thanks for all the vegans out there that are motivating me and showing me their ways. Much love and peace too all