#vent post (sorta)

[valleyoffools]

genuinely insane that intense burnout can have you thinking shit like I Hate My Friends That Want To Play Games With Me like bro I want to do that what's my goddamn problem lmao

[k1mdraculaa]

it’s been 10 years since i got diagnosed with scoliosis. i’ve been thru physiotherapy, ive worn a back brace and gotten the surgery yet i still have chronic pain every day. im so tired of being so stiff and sore it feels like nothing works and no matter how much stretching i do it never feels like my lower back and hips will ever be loose or not ache. it affects the quality of my life and it frustrates me so bad. i’m so tired of this shit honestly what is the point anymore

[mentally-retired]

hate having the kind of disability that requires me consistently have to ask for help

like no matter how hard i try i will always need to ask people for help, and society has made me feel like a burden for asking and needing help constantly

i know this is case for many of my fellow disabled people, for me it means i often cant rely on written, video or any instructions! like theyre helpful and i need those but along with someone to walk me through it the first time, often even the first couple times! which sucks! and its particularly hard with the educational system i group up with and its why im struggling so much in college atm

like i need to be able to ask questions, be corrected live shown things in different ways, things worded differently and so on! and a lot of people aren't willing to do and consider this need of mine a burden and it sucks! cus i cant really exist without it!

due to all this, i often feel like my existence is inherently a burden for things i cant control

[bunnygirlpaws]

it's kind of funny that the "bunnies are meant to be loved" post blew up so much because i posted it after seeing someone else post something distressing about rabbits. i'm glad there are people out there who wouldn't hurt bunnies. if you reblogged it or liked it i love you.

[fiifayefoofum]

It's fucking depressing being an artist these days. Every where you look in this capitalistic society you get reminded that people merely look at your art and immediately try to assign a value. Art isn't allowed to just goddamn exist anymore.

[arcaneschemes]

I attended protests as a kid. It was a good thing.

I didn't realize there was going to be a no kings protest in my town today, and I took Havoc to the library. The library parking lot is a community parking lot for the town, and people attending the protest were parking there. The protesters were all friendly and fine.

But the maga people getting out of their cars to counter-protest triggered my fight or flight so bad. Concealed carry of firearms is legal here, despite it being a "blue" state. This is a fact I'm constantly aware of, especially since 2016. The barely restrained hate and ire of the maga people as they made their way to the sidewalks through the library parking lot jacked my heart rate and anxiety up.

I'm home again, but the anxiety is still raging, and I have to keep reminding myself that not being at the protest myself because it wouldn't be safe for my kids to attend with me, and that I'm disabled and fending off a flare up, are all valid reasons to not stand for hours holding a sign. I want to be part of these protests, but I cannot afford to further disable myself or endanger my kids. I'm supporting my community in other ways, but holy fuck, everything is awful and scary and I'm trying to hold my shit together for the sake of my kids.

I'm lying down and my heart rate is at 103, and I've got muscle tremors. I hate this. Not sure how much is from an anxiety attack or just how bad my arthritis and period symptoms are...

Either way, I feel like shit, and I hate this.

[morg-among-the-stars]

I’m loving MAWS like everybody else but like with a lot of the media I’ve consumed recently, I’m pissed off at Clark Kent for having parents who are 1) unconditionally loving and 2) loving of each other and happily married

The cynical part of my brain goes, “It’s a cartoon, it’s fiction” but then I have to realize that some people’s parents DO love each other legitimately and that’s… uh… weird to wrap my head around

[vortexcreature]

!!Vent post, kinda? Also TW mild transphobia i suppose?!!

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Guess who's over heard his dad talk about how he's tired of pretending he accepts me being trans a boy and hopes the my Therapist can make me "normal" again, makes me a girl again... Yay.

Also hi! Yeah i am alive and back lol..