my little sister was like "you know u couldve given me the small candy n u couldve gotten the onigiri for urself if this was the last one in the store"
but i didnt wanna tell her that its because i rlly rlly love that onigiri flavor and that even though it was the last in the store i bought it for her in mind because whenever i pick her up she always says shes hungry and gets a little disappointed when i say i have no money so today i bought it because eating yummy food makes me really happy so i thought it would make her really really happy too and i thought that maybe this one thing was worth sacrificing my money for everyday if it meant she wouldnt be forced to lose her little kid appetite and have to scrape by with cheap chips from her small allowance just to fill her stomach so she doesnt know that from now on i plan to buy her many things like steamed buns and fresh wrapped shawarmas and little candies for her friends every day after school just so no one feels left out and so that she doesnt have to eat the cold canned food at home every day for nutrition and with this i hope that she'll find a safe place and a place of support in me for her to rely on when she doesnt want to sacrifice so much anymore so i tell her 'fine you can also buy that' or 'okay ill get you that. but take really good care of it' because shes a kid and i think its okay to be selfish or to want more because i remember when i was little having to split a bowl of noodles for breakfast once but i was still so hungry that i tried to get my moms portion only to be scolded and yelled at so now when i make dinner for her i tell my little sister 'okay you can get the extra' or 'alright you get the last piece' because i think it is alright if she wants more than what little she has and that its okay if she accidentally eats my meal because ill tell her 'i can cook something else anyway' and i will not yell at her or call her selfish because i think she just wanted to feel full and thats okay because she deserves to be so and now my only reply to her statement was "nah i already ate one in the morning. just enjoy it bro cuz it takes a long time b4 they restock again."