since this blog is growing fast asf i just thought this is a good time to talk about some of my health problems and why it might take a bit longer to pull all this off
i have scoliosis and i had a huge surgery 2 years ago, called spinal fusion
even now, 2 years later, i'm still feeling the after-effects. I can't sit in one place or in one specific position for too long. If i do my shoulder blades and my upper back start aching like crazy
It even gets to the point where i get dizzy, get chest pain, start sweating and struggle to breathe (like. all at the same time 🥀)
which is kind of ass when ur an artist
the fact that this is something that can't be undone really makes me hate having to live like this sometimes
still
i love doing what i do and so far everyone's been really supportive <3
this isn't me saying I'm calling the project off or anything this just to let ppl know the reason for why i might take multiple breaks throughout the process or the release takes a bit longer
(also if you've sent me a request to draw your fav.. dw i have not forgotten- I'm just doing it in my own time)
but yeah thank you thank you thank you aaaaa the fact ppl actually like my fuckass horse au makes me REALLY REALLY happy 🩷🩷🩷🩷
Ok so the pharmacy where i get T fucked up with the syringes and I'm really annoyed about it. They gave me 5 syringes with 18G needles and like 20 with 25G needles. I honestly don't understand why they'd do this. I've tried thinking about it from multiple angles and I just. Don't get it. I will explain why this was bad in a numbered list My computer crashed when I was writing this.
TW for lots of talk about needles and injections under the read more.
I usually use 1 syringe with 2 different needles: one to draw the t and one to inject. Usually it's a 21G to draw and a 25G to inject. Luckily the needles on these syringes are detachable so I can still do that, I'll just have an extra syringe.
Unfortunately the 18G is, rather predictably, FUCKING HUGE. It's absolute shit to use but whatever. I'll go get new syringes tomorrow.
The syringe is a 3ml syringe. I need .25ml. Ok I can just guess, I know where .2 and .3 are i can just get somewhere between them. because guessing how much stuff to inject into your body is a Great Idea!
There's nothing to stop the syringes leaking while you switch the needle. Whatever I'll just hold it so it doesn't spill. I'll go get new syringes tomorrow.
This 25G is somehow way smaller than the 25G I usually use. Ok hopefully that won't be a problem.
So I inject it and. It won't inject. The plunger won't go down. I take the needle OUT OF MY FUCKING BODY because it's not fucking doing anything while it's in there
Out of sheer curiosity, I hold it over something and try to push the plunger down. With great difficulty, a single drop is pushed out. My guess is that either the "taking the needle off and putting a new one on" the "tiniest needle I have ever seen" or the "3ml syringe and the tiniest needle I have ever seen" is the reason for this.
So whatever, right? I'll just get different ones tomorrow. I start looking online to see if I can order them because it'd be easier to get a lot that way.
I find a medical supply company that has the exact syringes I used to use before running out. Yay! Unfortunately they only sell to medical professionals and retailers which, at time of writing this, I am not (I'm working on it). Luckily they have a separate site for general customers... which doesn't sell syringes. I start looking on the internet to see if anyone knows where I can get this shit. I see a lot of posts and comments where people say you can get them on amazon but guys.
I cannot stress enough the fact that I would never buy a syringe on fucking amazon. I am going to stab it into my fucking body I do not want to order it on the website that's hosted such classics as "thorium dildo" and "Microwaves that catch on fire".
There is next to no regulation on that site and you're sitting here telling me to order fucking needles from them? are you insane?? Like it's one thing ordering a cow plush or a dumb hat from amazon but like. those things don't go in my body.
