#venty stuff

[rindomness]

realizing that 90% of my people pleasing behavior comes from a mix of the way i was socialized (social skills “therapy”) combined with “i want to be a nice person” and a lot of social learned helplessness and that i should Probably go to Actual therapy to work on how to Not Do That Anymore because i keep getting walked over in relationships 🙃

[the-local-oddity]

I know relapses don't negate my progress, but gosh, it's hard to work through them...

[snowy-bones]

I really don’t know any more..

[blitzyreblogs]

“Aren’t they too ooc? Why do you ship them??”

When has something like two characters being ooc ever stopped someone from shipping them????? ಠ_ಠ It’s not that hard to avoid content of a ship. 

[kanoshinkanoshinkanoshin]

mood of the day

[vampyrnymph]

nobody:

me rocking back and forth: I've become so used to living in a controlled environment my whole life (I.e. school, home) that now that I'm an adult I'm terrified of living a independent life because if I'm not told what to do all of my actions feel wrong.

[doctorguilty]

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I feel so mad at myself looking back on the ways I let myself be treated by others, the way I would just roll over and take things, I know I shouldn't beat myself up but it's frustrating, and it happens because I'm so absolutely starved and desperate to feel loved and cared about in real life, just to feel less lonely, I'll give into anything for affection that I'll purposefully deny is completely empty and later sob myself to sleep over it , it's pathetic

But I'm glad, at least, a lot of that is going to change

The last time I cried was like, a short while after I got back to CT and I was unloading some stuff but I can't remember crying at all since then... it's funny

[nintendozombie]

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