vequitrae replied to your post “Still a little too shell-shocked from the finale to talk about any of...”
I´ve conflicted feelings about the finale cause otoh I am super excited to experience demon dean in next season. But at the same time rewatching the finale just fills me with this sad hollow feeling that threatens to consume me from the inside out.
I'm completely with you. I'm really happy that Dean will have a part in the mytharc next season, I think it's daring and risky and has tremendous storyline potential. On the other hand, Dean was always the human in the story, the everyday hero with no powers who fights despite astronomical odds. This is him losing the fight. Turning into a demon is his literal worst nightmare. It validates his self-loathing belief that this is what he deserves, and it means that Alistair, his torturer in hell, got what he wanted. That moment of relief, the look in his eyes, when Dean thought he at least died human is an even bigger knife through the heart. It just feels so utterly hopeless. Now he will probably do harm, and likely can't be stopped (since Cain couldn't be killed), which is just the antithesis of what he worked for his entire life. You just know he'd rather die, and can't even do that. How is he ever going to come back from something like this, and still be adorable hilarious dorky vulnerable Dean? It feels so unfair. He's made mistakes, but he doesn't deserve this. :(
And Sam and Cas grieving. Sam sitting alone in the dark with Dean's body in the next room was heartbreaking. Losing his brother after months of conflict, which you KNOW he's going to feel regret about - not in the sense that he was in the wrong, but because he thought they would have more time. So incredibly sad. Season 10 is going to traumatize us all.
It's nice to commiserate together lol. *hugs* Ahhhh, this stupid show!!!!!!!
