I don't have much to say regarding my 2025 that I didn't already cover right before Christmas, and I don't feel that said year is worth a second humoring in my specific case, so I'll keep it short and simply wish everyone a Happy New Year. One for @greenyvertekins, one for @darklightheart, one for @beevean, one for @spinningbuster98, one for @star-stages, one for @pixiel-say-fuck-those-scammers, and one for each and every one of you. I hope you all get what you want out of this year. :)
Just kidding, I guess I do have more to say lol. To look at it positively, although it hasn't been easy, I'd like to think I've grown a little (not physically, you know what I mean) when looking back, and I feel closer with my mutuals than ever before by the end of it all. And I know I've been extremely slowgoing with my fanfics, as if that's new, but I might finally be overcoming my imposter syndrome for real. No, it's not the sort of thing that vanishes instantly, let alone permanently, but there's a real difference now. A welcome one.
I'm not saying this because I assume it's what people want to hear. I'm being serious. I'm not comparing my results and detail to everyone else's subconsciously anymore. I still take ages to be satisfied, but now I can BE satisfied with no catch, no "it's not like that cake..." inadequacy. It took years and relapses, but I've finally embraced, fully embraced, what makes my writing... my writing.
Unlike Solaris, you can't extinguish this flame. You will get more horsie, and yes, that's a threat.
(They're still not impressed with Surge.)
