@victimplagued continued from here
Of course, it does sting.
But pain had become a reoccurrence for them, hadn’t it? It barely phased Steve anymore. His body had been pushed, twisted, and slotted into impossible spaces when needed. He had become the hero that everyone desired him to be. Symbolic and a sign of hope, the weight of such a label written over the bruises knuckles and cracked ribs. Not dead - not even close. Held together by bandages and fierce determination.
Steve smiles because that’s what he does. Reassure anyone, especially Tony, that it’s going to be fine. The bad guy was defeated and they could all rest well knowing they had done their best. It’s the pressing and insurmountable weight of the cost of their decisions. The ones who hadn’t lived so others may. Steve feels the tear of his busted lip as his smile widens by habit, not quite meeting his blue eyes.
“You don’t have to.” He says but he is sure Tony knows. He is more durable than most. Been through a lot damn worse. How was Tony? Was he fine under that focused gaze? Was his mind here in the present with Steve or already calculating the next move they’d all need to make to ensure this never happens again? “Hey,” Steve finally manages breaking his thoughts to grab Tony’s wrist (gently) as his head cocks slightly to the side, “You good?” He asks. Tony was definitely the type to throw himself into tasks to keep busy. To keep his mind overloaded. He was the breakable one, was he not? “Before you go all nurse on me, how are you? You took a beating too.”
Crouching in front of Steve, Tony pressed the washcloth as gently as he could to Steve’s temple. It would heal--he knew that; it always did--but that didn’t make him feel any better about watching Steve throw himself into battle like a loose Lego piece: fully ready to be broken apart and put back together again, so overconfident that he'd be alright in the end that he’d let the whole concept of self preservation go out the damn window. And they called Tony reckless.
“Don’t.” Tony batted away Steve’s hand on his wrist, no matter how good it felt to have him close again, to know that he even could hold him like this, that he wasn’t too far gone. “Don’t you dare. You don’t get to play knock knock jokes on death’s door and then play the paranoid teammate. It’s my turn. And I swear to god, Steve, if you don’t let me ‘go all nurse on you,’ I’ll kick your ass myself.” Maybe he was a hypocrite to say it, and maybe it was stupid--Steve could take care of himself better than anyone Tony had ever known; his super soldier healing made sure of it--but he couldn’t help the way his weak old heart was pounding away on the other side of the arc reactor. Watching Steve fall like that had been one of the worst things he’d ever seen--and he’d seen the Hulk naked.
“I’m fine.” Maybe a few broken ribs, a bruise blossoming above his cheek bone, but he’d live. The important thing now was to figure out what the hell went wrong--he’d have to study JARVIS’ cams later, replay the fight like a football coach on the make or break verge of losing the playoffs, and then it would be back to the lab to cook up something stronger, more flexible, something that moved with Steve instead of against him. “Here’s a thought: you stop worrying about me for ten seconds, maybe have a little faith in your teammate that I know what I’m doing, and you stop talking before you make that lip of yours any worse.” Tony moved the rag there, gently cleaning the blood from Steve’s bottom lip.
















