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[ofcoursekillerqueenistaken]

how I feel…

[ofcoursekillerqueenistaken]

[ofcoursekillerqueenistaken]

thinking about it makes me want to puke

It takes me back to when I puked as I ran away after seeing the first boy who broke my dumb little heart.

I remember seeing the boy, running and feeling so broken. It wasn’t even because we broke up but because he made me feel so stupid, worthless and so insecure. The way he made me feel disgusted me.

I was sooo young but I remember being so broken. I didn’t love the boy, I knew that, but I didn’t love myself either.

I hate feeling like this. It’s like this thing in my stomach and I can’t cry anymore. I just want to throw up, so weird, right?

[ofcoursekillerqueenistaken]

I can’t remember what life was like five years ago.

[ofcoursekillerqueenistaken]

I’ll be okay.

[ofcoursekillerqueenistaken]

so scary to think that the person you love could fall in love with someone else...

I don’t even want to think that.

[ofcoursekillerqueenistaken]

I just don’t know if I’ll ever be able to feel fully happy. I want to be happy and then I think of my brother and I can’t tell him why I’m so happy or annoyed or mad and I feel empty. Empty is a scary feeling.

[ofcoursekillerqueenistaken]

I’ll be okay.