god we already knew about clarke’s self-doubt and self-hatred (see: 6x02, the whole show up to this point) but the manifestation of it this episode fully killed me emotionally. i’m glad it did, because character arc and plot and a good show, but god, i’m so crushed. clarke really doesn’t—or didn’t—think she deserves to be alive, and she ruminates on her guilt more than anything else. again, we know this, but god it was heartbreaking to have a whole episode about it. she’s so good and it shatters me inside the way she talks to herself














