#violation report

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procrastination report: told myself it’ll only take a while to google lyrics for a video game song. ended up looking at a five nights at freddy’s gatcha life music battle

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Reason why I have an entire daily checklist for rules and habits to acquire is that turning off my phone after 10:00PM is the difference between 30 pages read and waking up at 6AM with enough energy to exercise, and sleeping at 3AM and waking up groggy at 12NN with half the day wasted.

That's not even enough. I have to do what I did before - every time I break my own rules, or when I plan to, I'll announce it here, publicly, with the reason and afterwards how long it took.

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procrastination report

Decided to break my "no excuse" rule to not scroll down Tumblr for 10 minutes because I screwed up the day

Yes, I did walk my wonderful dogs and did a bit of exercise, and two and a half hours cumultive of studying in a non-school day isn't a complete failure. My past self would be enraged to see my ingrate present self call it disappointing

Recently the only problem I face is avoiding distractions and quasiaddictions, but I just. can't. sit down and do math. I've never felt so restless. Should I meditate? More exercise? I don't think I can finish my homework at this rate, but I can't focus and keep still.

Fun fact: the homework was given three weeks ago. the real deadline was three days ago. half crammed it the day itself but i also had a paper i procrastinated on too. my professor just allowed me to pass it late out of compassion and pity.

I really, truly thought publicizing my entire day would prevent me from screwing up

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violation report: spent 3+ hours on tumblr today. I got a time tracker app so I’ll be using that now and reporting it along with my daily checklist.

Also, my posture has improved. I don’t know how - maybe it’s me using my old computer. 

Hold me accountable:

Will no longer use the same daily checklist I made, though I’ll use the same app. Will have a new one prepared tomorrow at 4:00 UTC time (https://time.is/UTC), and will start making one after breakfast.

I wasn’t able to run today (but did mild exercise). Overslept until 7:30AM (not ideal to run without a water jug by then). Keeps raining at times I’m available for running. So...maybe I won’t be so spoiled and actually run tomorrow morning. 

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But before I leave, my violation report: Spent 20 minutes too long on tumblr again. I should use my timer more in my phone

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Spent 10-20 minutes on social media scrolling down.

I don’t want to be dependent on making “excuse reports” (aka post publicly that I’ll be using social media for a reason), so I didn’t make one. I definitely need a timer though. And I need to write my reason so that I won’t be tempted to check my email all nilly-willy. I’ll see if I can control myself by using a timer only.

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The point of me making “violation reports” - aka posts in which I announce to Tumblr that I’m procrastinating or breaking my own rules - is to prevent me from doing it again. I thought, even if I’d be dependent on public fear for many months just to prevent myself from procrastinating, eventually I would destroy the habit.

But I completely forgot that habits will stay with you forever. You have to edit a habit - aka when you suddenly want to snack, and you have a tendency to eat scooped-out Nutella, eat grapes or a banana instead. And that mind part that wants to eat sees eating fruits the same as eating chocolate because they both give the same dopamine or endorphin or whatever rush. Like this thing from Duhigg’s book:

I will still make violation reports, but it will be solution-focused, trying to find a way to prevent another incident.

Here’s the first violation report I’ll make under this system:

I spent 20 minutes on Tumblr an hour ago just scrolling down.

OK, we announced the problem like all the previous violation reports, so let’s try describing it before we problem solve.

I was in the mood to procrastinate. It was night time, and I’m usually very relaxed and wanting to procrastinate starting 8:30PM

Now, the new solution bit. Just keep asking questions to yourself.

How do I stop myself from procrastinating on Tumblr? By not using Tumblr? But I have a studyblr! Should I quit my studyblr? I could just ban myself from Tumblr when I’m done, but I know I often use social media even when I ban myself from it. mean, I can quit, but does that have to be my first option? I only start procrastinating like that when I’m using my phone and it’s night time -

- and I was using Tumblr on my phone at night.

And I have a tendency to waste my time on infinite-scroll apps. So maybe the solution is to delete the Tumblr app, and use Tumblr through my laptop. But how will I be able to update my checklists as easily? Maybe I can just create an offline copy of my checklists - screenshots or write them on paper. then update the online ones at the end of the day.

So what I will do: Delete Tumblr app from my mobile device, keep phone turned off at 9:00PM and in a special area in my room so I won’t procrastinate with it, and jot down your checklists too.

Don’t hope to solve it overnight. The problem might ask itself to be investigated many times before it goes away.

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Totally didn’t procrastinate for an hour being in Tumblr for an hour and configuring browser add-ons! It’s not procrastinating if you’re making sure your future self won’t procrastinate! Even if I have a deadline in a few hours!

...and this is why I require myself to report even excuses here - they always sound so sound in my head. Give me 15 more minutes and I’ll go back to my derivatives.