#visual cancer

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Hello there,

I just added the second set of emotional abstracts and drawings. I did these more than 10 years ago. Still working on more (lol). I plan on having the book done with drawings and other chapters of dialog. It has been a rewarding endeavor and I am still learning and drawing (better) than I think I ever had. 

I hope that you enjoy the drawings and that they enlighten you to what an emotion can look like, especially, through the eyes of a cancer patient, survivor, or cured,

Thanks for the support.

Maria 

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Breathing Room

Tranquil

Cancer has a way of separating you from the normal flow of life. It’s like living in a bubble. Though it is your own space, you still feel invaded. You view life around you as busy and steady, yet your life has slowed down dramatically. You want to feel safe in your bubble and separate yourself from your illness. Sometimes it just calls for ‘breathing.’ Cancer brings on feelings of confinement and restriction. It is almost like being put in a prison with no windows. What you need to do is relax and just breathe. Breathing is a good thing. Our bodies are designed to automatically breathe without us being aware of its actions. It brings oxygen to our blood cells and takes away the carbon dioxide that pollutes our system. Yet, when you take a deep breath, you fill your lungs with the life around you. Sometimes you just need to be alone so you can breath and meditate on your new life. A good thing to do is to go outside take a deep breath, feel the wind on your face and the warmth of the sun. Become one with your environment and just breathe.

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Forces and Interactions

Scornful

Life happens! No one knows exactly what their future holds. Of course, we can plan and hope that our lives will be full and successful. However, remember you are not the one in control. We may have goals and aspirations of what our life should be, but we need to understand that change can and will happen. So when being diagnosed with cancer it enters your life and tries to destroy everything we thought we could do. Now life changes and we have to adjust the way we live and come to the realization that life will never be the same. It’s like an unseen force that takes over and we become a shell of who we used to be. We can no longer interact with society and time feels fleeting. Yet, we need to remember and focus on the fact that we are still here; we are still alive and fighting for the right to survive. Though no one likes changes, sometime change is necessary. Not exactly because of cancer, but something to remind us that we should strive for a better life and never give up on our dreams. Maybe, even create new dreams. Cancer can either be a set back, a complete road block, or a reminder of how precious life really is.

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Walk in the Light

Ambitious

When I was first told that I had cancer and it was in the first part of Stage 4. I didn’t comprehend what was being said. It was almost as if my mind would not register the severity of my condition. I was told that I had to start chemo right away or I may die. I tried and tried to understand. Nothing came. Even during all the surgeries and that first chemo treatment, I was completely indifferent. I felt some what lost because everyone around me was reacting, yet I felt nothing. I don’t know if it was confusion or if I was in a state of shock. When it finally hit me, I felt desolate and hurt. Though I was never alone, I felt empty, confused, and sad. I spent a lot of time on my own thinking. When I was finally able to drive, I found myself going to places I may have at one time taken for granted. I would go to the nature-park, find a tree, and just lean against it to think. I would fantasize about what my life could have been. Now I have to try to keep the life. I have. One thing I have learned is that every situation is different during treatment; however, we must try our best to survive. If you have failed at other things in life know this, if you find yourself lost, search for the light. If you prove to be resilient, the results will come.

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Graphical Journey

Crafty

The only way I could describe my journey in the battle against cancer was through music. It becomes a visual journey of the ups and downs throughout my life, even the lowest point. As each note is played it tells a story of my life starting with my first memory to the chaos that follows, then a soft gentle ending to a vigorous pace. The way the music is interrupted is according to the listener. It holds on to an aesthetic value. One may hear it as a love song to be at peace with life, others may hear it as a strong march into an unfamiliar future, and yet some may be tone deaf and miss the meaning all together. Which ever way we choose to face the music is based on our understanding of the rhythm of life. Cancer may hold out the notes a little longer, but the beat; such as your heart, will find rest in between and the music will continue.