#vivid shit

[karmanistic]

[valleykey]

y'all ever have a dream so awful

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More Dreams!!

Last night I had a dream with my Language Exchange partner in it. He started out by hugging me right away and kissing me on the fucking lips. And I was shocked. But then he said that he was sorry for being distant or something. And then he was acting like my boyfriend for the rest of the night. Just kisses and hugs and walking cuddles; really innocent. And then we went to a party and I was targeted somehow negatively and I was a little drunk so somehow he saved me from ridicule.

I WAKE UP AND GO BACK TO SLEEP, AND END UP WITH A DREAM CONTINUANCE: I’m walking with my LE partner leaning my head on his shoulder sometimes but we know that this new thing with us is ending soon. I wasn’t really clingy and he didn’t try pushing me away so we’re just walking through 신촌 spending our last moments together. That dream dissipates and it fades to another one. So I’m in this new class and my best friend, Kathrina, is there, and the TA is doing roll call via his iPad. (There’s a TA doing it and the profesor is behind him looking unfortunate.) Lolz so he calls my name and says that there’s a problem because my name has only my name and none of my information. So he gets a bit douchey with me as if it’s my fault and the Professor is like, I’ll be your partner for the Name Game (she doesn’t seem that bad at all but the TA is a bitch) as the TA sends me out of the room to somehow out of nowhere figure out where my information went. So I go to the front desk that 20 meters down the hall from the classroom and we exchange greetings and then I tell him that my information has disappeared and the TA sent me out to find out why. He gets a bit fired up and tells me how that is impossible. So he walks me back to class and tells the TA that it is utterly impossible that he doesn’t have my information because depending on some random factor (maybe when we registered) a few students are listed under “ww”. For example, I was not only Krystina without my information but I was also listed as “ww Krystina Middlename Lastname” and that entry was literally stuffed with all my information. So I’m guessing that since other people were listed under “ww” that the TA was a punk towards them too, so people were cheering a little bit and then the epic part of my dream happened. The guy from the front desk coolly puts his hands around my waist and asks me to go out with him. So I ask him his name and it comes out “Cari-” (like it’s almost as loud as a club apparently so I can’t hear him well) so I’m like”Carol”? And he’s like whispering this part in my ear. “No, Caring. Caring Heart.” And I fucking melt and he tightens his grip (does not hurt) and tells me “Go out with me even though I’m as nice as your brother.” So I say okay! I’m floored in a good way and mildly creeped out. After he leaves I sit back down and wonder how interestingly things tend to work out. It’s simply interesting to the core. So I talk to Kathrina (yes, she’s still here), and she’s giggling about how quickly this class became a fucking corny ass television program, just giggling at the whole situation and then I’m moved to a row behind her (so I’d be next to her if we were in the same row). We talk when the TA isn’t paying attention and whatnot. And I fall in love with life so hard that I even start joking with the people in my row. ~~~ ​I don’t usually wake up smiling after any kind of day, especially a bullshit day (having to make 2 consecutive trips to 이태원, dealing with stupid “friend” shit), but when I do, I restore any lost faith in the world. :)

[hearteater-rainbowwolf]

Dreaming memories

the rarest times i have is when i dream, but i mean i have one i can remember.

But it wasnt even a regular one that would happen normall its

Rei Rei posing all nakkid but have the pose just right so it censors  her bits

green watery area with darkness tenticles at the edges of my eyevision in the dream

watching myself sleep, lucidly like

some sort of parody of everyone i can remmember

THIS time was a lego memory. a very unhappy one

it was when i was a wee lad at the edge of my elementary school. sitting there putting a check on the very wanted "lego room" for the last day of school, for the last time in that  spesific school.

Every year lego was what i put as 1 or as 2 out of 5, movie room being its runner.  the only time you could have some sort of freedom of what you get to do after the sucessful stage 1 brassnails of emotion compression  that school does to kids.

So  whatever, i was a good little shit to try to even get this lego heaven (mostly because  i knew what a lego was but not the feel the touch or the smell of the things) finally FINALLY i get  the lego room, fuck yes.

I'm all screaming internally and shit while the teachers group us and throw us to another for rooms. I see the door with Legos all over the floor of different sizes seen through the window.

shoved in the room i notice somethings off, not the legos, the legos are still cool and fresh. it was the kids in it, For NOT ONLY were there just 7 fucking kids besides myself  THEY WERE ALLL KINDERGARDENERS. Here i am on my last day of elementary i'm at least 5 years older than any snot slapping bumrushers there. Worse is i know none of them, and i wasnt going to be able to know them because they were still part googoo-gaga.

Uuugghhhh  the dream ends after i go ahead and eat a stupid lego and sit on the floor and wait for my fate. course in real life i just sat there fuming in hate at how hyped the room was and the whole threat " its always full, turn your vote fast "

i cry, memory dreams are not fun being as vivid as that. its been ages  whyyyy