idk something about Gem and Grian sending Pearl to her death and not even realizing until it was too late. something about how there was distance there from the very beginning but she did clearly still matter to them in some way. something about Etho telling them they threw her away like a rag, at her funeral, and how even if it was a cruel thing to say and it wasn't exactly right it also wasn't quite as wrong as it should've been, and how they both seemed to know that. something about how "the worst of us" applies to Jimmy but also to them. something about them realizing that maybe they should've been there with her, instead of sending her off alone during all of that, after she was already dead and gone. something about how that whole time it seemed like they wanted the Pearl everyone was afraid of, the Pearl everyone was imagining, instead of the Pearl they had. something about them calling themselves "the villains" from the very beginning. about what that implies. about Grian being singled out and targeted in wl for knowing about the wildcards and Gem being feared this season even when she hadn't done anything yet. about what everyone else sees when they look at them v.s. who they really are. about the ways they've both spiraled and the reputations they've both embraced. about Pearl having a similar reputation but struggling against it. what if, to Pearl, the name "villains" was a mockery of the way everyone else saw them, but to Gem and Grian, it was acceptance? what if they wanted that version of her, like they wanted those versions of themselves? and what if, even as the distance between her and them grew, she stayed with them anyway, because the last thing she wanted was to lose them, to watch them suffer alone the way she had once upon a time? what if she chose them, and they chose what everyone wanted them to be, and it killed her? and they couldn't even see it until she was already gone?