#void.dysphoria

[voideadd]

knowing all these mental illnesses we have are specifically human issues , and theyre just what our vessel has is both relieving and frustrating .

on one hand , im so glad theyre temporary , we only have to deal with them until this vessel dies . sure , its difficult , and it sucks but its still temporary .

on the other hand , these mental illnesses are all we know right now . not having any memories from before makes it that much more difficult because i have no idea what were actually like .

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this is fucking ridiculous . we have to eat and sleep and drink to survive in this vessel and deal with all of these disgusting bodily functions it comes with

absolutely nothing good about this shitty little meat sack were stuck in

[voideadd]

the frustration of not knowing whether or not i existed before i was stuck in this human body . it would make sense if i did , but i have no memories of it at all .

[voideadd]

i was told "were all human" today way too many times . no we are not . we are not all human . i am not human . not human not human not fucking human . fuck you . speak for yourself .

[voideadd]

the fact that this human body doesnt look the way i do is so fucking upsetting i hate looking in the mirror i hate when people take pictures of me i hate the way it looks i hate that its not really me

[voideadd]

i cant wait to leave this human body .

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i wish these human eyes worked as my eyes should . im supposed to see clearly in complete darkness , but unfortunately i am not able to . upsetting .

[voideadd]

the need to dematerialize into black smoke and be one with the darkness is so fucking strong right now , i actually want to disappear so badly , get me out of this physical body