2 days left then I will have like fully 3 weeks together with my new fulltime job. tho I still cant get used to these kinda tough time by slowing down others work haha but yeah I could day by day try my best to finish tasks in my level.
3 weeks, I realize that to be adroit at something would cost you a lot, sometimes money, age, failure,....
Standing at a good position at first place ain't really help you grow faster. It just like, you know, drained you, till nearly dead =')) then yourself would see which, how, and why those "things" cause you coma LOL
and yes, from that, you'd learn how to stand up yourself, by courage, talent, even risk, anything.
I got ambiguous all the fk time, like, why do I have to be a designer instead of a freelance writer; or why do I have to sit there in a room trying to be a miss meticulousy with all that arrangement or layout n stuff instead of just translating articles and youtube videos.
But then I realize something I've never comprehended well enough.
I love art, all kinds of art.
even some random washi tapes stacked in a page of notebook with real messy and orthodox handwriting, still looks very aesthetically to me.
that's why, I could never be an artist, and never will.
simply cause I love beauty, want to create beauty.
not art.
The ambitious I have for this new freaking job remains the same, yeah, so well no matter how bad things are, this is still my fav so far <3
Idk if I could have a chance to be a super tiny part of chi Chi's projects, but sure I would try best.
I have a pleasure of being incharge for the whole Ly's project, so happy. That would be my biggest achievement of da first 3 working week so far.
Rosii I know you're not gonna read this but sorry for my selfishness. I know that you guys are all tired and overloaded, I should've tell you first.
I've been guilty for half day time. Hope I would be much more thoughtful than just mumbling others' mistakes.
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Anyways, thanks you all for being a lovely part of my working life. I did many things to earn money, from being Freelance Photographer, Youtube translator, Marketing Intern, Visual Manager, to Shop Assistant, but until now I just have one R-E-A-L things that's called JOB.
Thanks for making my new year so BRIGHT.
I can't tell anything, but I would try my best to be an effective part of you, not a useless junior ;)
p/s: thanks chi Dung today when calling me the future Art Director for being assigned too much work. To me that's something I can't even dare to dream of, but anw, you just give me the biggest motivation I have ever had as a designer.
I'll try not to complain hahaha
