February 4th, 2020. 2:52 AM.
you just fell asleep on my arm, after we finished watching videos together for the night, and i didn’t get the chance to thank you for tonight before you did so i figured i’d do it here instead. so, thank you - for spending the evening with me, and watching phantom of the opera because you know i love it, and showing me rent because you love it and you knew i would too. i’ve said this before but i’ll say it again: i love sharing things with you; even the tiniest, most casual of things. and i just love experiencing things with you, no matter how simple.
everything is different with you. even watching phantom of the opera tonight, a musical which i’ve seen more times than i’m happy admitting to you, felt so different (in the best way) at your side. watching you get excited at the drama of parts that i had previously memorized, or giggle while i attempted to sing along to songs that i have sang on my own for years; it was all just so much ... more with you. you add so much to any experience that i have and i just can’t get enough of sharing everything with you because of it. i want you as a part of everything i have ever and will ever do and i’ve always known that but i’m reminded of it each night i get the luxury of sharing yet another thing with you.
you’re just so wonderful. so absolutely breathtaking in your magnificence that exists not only by your physical appearance but by the very essence of who you are. and god, i adore you. i love you so, so much. and i’m so, so lucky to get every day and every night that i have ever and will ever have with you - but i’m especially lucky to get nights like tonight; where it’s just you and i, and the little moments that we decide to share with one another; when we take experiences that either have once been or could have been our own and make them ours instead.
i didn’t mean to make this so long and rambly. in short, what i’m trying to say is that i had a wonderful time tonight. and i’m so grateful that you are not only open to but enjoy the things that i like to show you, and that you are not only willing but eager to show me things in return. and i love crafting a life with you, piecing the two of us together day by day and detail by detail as we continue to build a future together; i love the domesticity of the things you and i now have the luxury of sharing. and ... i’m rambling again clskdkgg. i just .. thank you. you make so happy. i know that i say that all of the time, and you may be sick of hearing me say it over and over again, but you make me so happy. you define happiness for me; i no longer know or would like to know the meaning of the word without you.
my love. my life. my home. i love you with everything i am. thank you for tonight. i really loved every second of it, and i’m going to love ending the wonderful evening by rolling over and cuddling you while i fall asleep in a second too. goodnight, baby.