Who’s Afraid of the Big Scary Egg?
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I haven’t done a personal post in ages. Probably not since last year during the FMLS90 challenge that I bombed in excellent fashion.
I decided it is time to get my rear in gear and start getting healthy again. It’s not like I don’t always want to be healthy, but over this past summer I’ve been feeling especially lethargic. I’ve also found that old activities that I love like swimming and hiking are becoming incredibly more difficult, so it is time to get to it!!!! I don’t want to focus too much on my weight or my size because that can cause me to get discouraged really quickly. Also, I truly am trying to learn to love myself as I am always.....BUT my mother took a video yesterday and here are some screenshots.
That is me and my little sister. I’m the one in purple. My sister has always been smaller than me, but this contrast is just too much to ignore.
These pictures are of the two of us 2 years ago when I was working out daily and being the healthiest I have been in a while.
I want to get back into the groove of being healthy and active! So I’m taking action. I’ve hired a personal trainer through my university and my first session with her is tomorrow. Tomorrow she will administer a thorough fit test which includes going inside of the big scary egg.
The egg will give an accurate measurement of my ratio of body fat to lean body mass. This is exciting, but I’m still nervous because A. I hate enclosed spaces and B. I know whatever the numbers are that they egg spits out will make me feel horrible. I also know that she will want to weigh me. More numbers that will make me sick. I need to do this to get healthy, and I need to learn how to take the numbers and use them as a tool to assess my progress and not as a way to make myself feel worthless and guilty. It’s going to be a long 8 weeks, but I am so hopeful and ready to turn things around. I want to feel in control again!