#2
The biggest trigger that got me poured this thought out on the internet is my struggle dealing with a toxic co-worker.
Nobody wants to be friends with her. We are on the same team, so I became the one she clings on to. I am a newbie myself, I have a newbie reputation to hold up so I guess I have nothing to do instead of pretending that I am a good teammate.
Her toxicity that I need to deal with is that she always rants and talks negatives about everything. She gossips and talks bad about others. She also always plays victim.
At first it was fun listening to someone’s struggle on the work place. Until it is not anymore. Listening to her rants about her jobs and stuffs for almost 3 hours a day became totally exhausting and even depressing sometimes.
That same attitude goes up to a year now. Affecting my mental state and energy. I become so negative on doing my job. I lost respects to people she talks badly about. I get so tired every time for no reason. I even started to swear and get easily angry if stuff doesn’t work well.
I don’t like this version of me.