Gratitude 6/16
- talking to dad yesterday. Even though it turned into a conversation about what scholarly activities I'm doing and not doing, I appreciate him and the opportunity to have him consciously love me. - having patience with my healing process. I still have some remnant issues from my last relationship, like why didn't he want me? Now, I've been trying to move on and date other people but that wonder of if I'm worth a fight is plaguing my mind. Logically I know I'm worth it but... I know it'll take some more time to really rid myself of that. Ugh. That's some vulnerable stuff so early in the morning. - feeling sore. I worked out yesterday with my trainer friend and he had me doing all kinds of real work. Haha. It was good. - for the last several weeks I've been hanging out with/dating this guy who I thought was really great but that's over now. One thing I really liked about him was that he was always down to do fun, touristy things in the city. So, I'm excited for the opportunity to go explore the city on my own. To do things without the comfort of company. Simply enjoy myself. Yes, this is good. Sigh. I guess.
