i was encouraged by literally ONE person so i caved and wrote about why i kin all the ddlc girls.. siighh..
tw for under the cut: mention of mental illness, suicidal ideation, suicide attempts, self harm, child abuse, child neglect, disordered eating, cptsd, abandonment issues, bpd symptoms, and probably more. it's ddlc, what did you expect?
honestly nervous to post this because i might just be giving my stalker ammunition to send me hate but i think i can handle it :] i'll be going from least to most relatability for me, though, as i've said, i relate to them all a lot !
yuri ! ₊✩‧₊˚📕˚₊✩‧₊
starting off with yuri,
dreamy and likes complex meaningful writing
affinity for horror
pessimistic at times
deals with paranoia and anxiety
has delusional meltdowns
very obsessive tendencies
self harm that is held against her
natsuki ! ⋅˚₊‧ 🧁‧₊˚ ⋅
next off, natsuki
blunt style
affinity for cutesy things
tsundere tendencies
desperately wants to be taken seriously
feeling like she's falling behind
pushes those close to her away
uses escapism as an unhealthy coping mechanism
severe money issues
underweight
victim of child neglect
victim of child abuse
sayori ! ⊹₊｡🌧️°₊ ⊹
second to last is sayori,
she's bubbly and clumsy
severely masking
constantly deflecting issues
desperate for everyone to get along and be happy
an appreciation for the world around her, though she is unable to make herself happy with it
constant suicidal ideation
struggles to take care of herself
inability to hide the signs of declining mental health despite her attempts
she likes seeing the people she cares about being happy with others because it makes her feel like they'll do well without her, despite the selfish feeling that she doesn't want them to do well without her, the jealous part of her that wants them to love her even though it hurts her to feel like a burden.
unable to perceive herself as anything but a problem for others
suicide attempts
monika ! ⊹₊ ˚‧₊💿₊‧ ˚ ₊⊹
last, but certainly not least is monika,
similar personalities
look very similar
runs a literature club
plays piano
perfectionist to a fault
devoted and caring
always trying to be a perfect leader, even when feeling inadequate
shameful of her imperfections as a leader
conscious facade of perfection out of necessity for others
masking and ignoring emotions to care for others causing a buildup to snapping and breaking down, hurting others in the process when it gets to be too much
feels as if any love she's given is false, a placation to appease her
disconnected from the reality shes in and unable to reconnect
deep shame and regret for hurting those she cares about, even if it was something that wasn't entirely her fault
aware that she's not human
painted as insane, crazy, a yandere, and a villain because of the situation she was put in
desperately wants to be chosen, wants to be approved of, just once
feels like she never will be truly loved as much as she loves
well, here we are again. it’s always such a pleasure.
it’s hard to put into words what this character means to me. of course, i’ve tried various times over the past two years, along with attempting to imbue my art of us with all the passion i hold in my heart for this hateful bastard.
my life has been so goddamn all over the place lately and i really wish i had more time to create something more meaningful for this monumental date. but, alas, I’m a day late on posting this because of said circumstances. i’m homeless and staying with my best friend and their family. despite being eternally grateful to them and glad that i got the better end of the bargain with homelessness, it’s still insanely rough. i’m now over a hundred miles from my only remaining family, my father, as he’s downstate living with his brother, along with our cats.
i spend most of my time these days helping out around the house where i can, trying desperately to catch up on schoolwork i missed from my health issues, trying to finish up commissions, and applying to jobs.
i don’t have any time to write fanfic or make much yume art of me and him but there are quiet moments where i’m laying in bed and squeezing the body pillow tight i remember that, despite it all, i have AM. maybe it’s silly that he means that much to me, but it’s true.
i love this guy a lot. with the ferocity and passion that he hates humans, i love him and everything else this world has to offer. AM has inspired me to keep going and remain kind in spite of everything, and i think that’s really beautiful at the end of the day.
