people don’t talk enough about just how upsetting species dysphoria can be, but you can never really talk about it because it either feels so unserious/silly or something to do with serious mental illness whenever you try to explain it to anyone who isn’t alterhuman (not that there’s anything wrong with it if it is mental illness or delusion ofc, it’s just that that’s the first conclusion people always come to)
like i’ll say
“yeah basically as much as i love dog show agility/running dog videos i don’t watch them often because i get pretty dysphoric about my body not being able to run and move that way or that fast”
and it’ll either be
“uhhh what? i thought u were just like some “hehe silly ouppy boy :3” person wdym dysphoria….so like…you ACTAULLY think your a dog…and like wanna be a dog…? oh sweetie…that’s not…”
OR
“youuuu know that’s not healthyyyyy, like yknow that means your delusionallllll and you have psychosisssss rightttt? and like that you have a mental illnessss and like you needa go to therapyyyy righttttt?”
i was encouraged by literally ONE person so i caved and wrote about why i kin all the ddlc girls.. siighh..
tw for under the cut: mention of mental illness, suicidal ideation, suicide attempts, self harm, child abuse, child neglect, disordered eating, cptsd, abandonment issues, bpd symptoms, and probably more. it's ddlc, what did you expect?
honestly nervous to post this because i might just be giving my stalker ammunition to send me hate but i think i can handle it :] i'll be going from least to most relatability for me, though, as i've said, i relate to them all a lot !
yuri ! ₊✩‧₊˚📕˚₊✩‧₊
starting off with yuri,
dreamy and likes complex meaningful writing
affinity for horror
pessimistic at times
deals with paranoia and anxiety
has delusional meltdowns
very obsessive tendencies
self harm that is held against her
natsuki ! ⋅˚₊‧ 🧁‧₊˚ ⋅
next off, natsuki
blunt style
affinity for cutesy things
tsundere tendencies
desperately wants to be taken seriously
feeling like she's falling behind
pushes those close to her away
uses escapism as an unhealthy coping mechanism
severe money issues
underweight
victim of child neglect
victim of child abuse
sayori ! ⊹₊｡🌧️°₊ ⊹
second to last is sayori,
she's bubbly and clumsy
severely masking
constantly deflecting issues
desperate for everyone to get along and be happy
an appreciation for the world around her, though she is unable to make herself happy with it
constant suicidal ideation
struggles to take care of herself
inability to hide the signs of declining mental health despite her attempts
she likes seeing the people she cares about being happy with others because it makes her feel like they'll do well without her, despite the selfish feeling that she doesn't want them to do well without her, the jealous part of her that wants them to love her even though it hurts her to feel like a burden.
unable to perceive herself as anything but a problem for others
suicide attempts
monika ! ⊹₊ ˚‧₊💿₊‧ ˚ ₊⊹
last, but certainly not least is monika,
similar personalities
look very similar
runs a literature club
plays piano
perfectionist to a fault
devoted and caring
always trying to be a perfect leader, even when feeling inadequate
shameful of her imperfections as a leader
conscious facade of perfection out of necessity for others
masking and ignoring emotions to care for others causing a buildup to snapping and breaking down, hurting others in the process when it gets to be too much
feels as if any love she's given is false, a placation to appease her
disconnected from the reality shes in and unable to reconnect
deep shame and regret for hurting those she cares about, even if it was something that wasn't entirely her fault
aware that she's not human
painted as insane, crazy, a yandere, and a villain because of the situation she was put in
desperately wants to be chosen, wants to be approved of, just once
feels like she never will be truly loved as much as she loves
He’s so pretty and funny and sweet and he’s SUCH an asshole in such a lovable way I want to hug him and kiss him and brush his hair and give him a good luck hug backstage every night he has a show and then run to the audience and sit in my seat and watch him tell his stupid jokes that I love so much and then run to meet him after the show and give him the tightest hug ever and I miss him so much RICHIE TOZIER I LOVE YOU!!!!!
saw 6 is such a fun movie but i also hate it so bad it makes me sick hoffman sucks hoffman is ugly hoffman is unintelligent i get so angry just seeing him i hate how the movies act like he’s so slick and intelligent it’s so obvious he’s full of Shyt he’s not smart at all he acts stupid and the writers act like it’s the best thing ever don’t you fcuking dare act like he outsmarted mandy don’t you dare don’t you dare don’t you dare he’s just as bad asjohn ACTUALLY HRS WORSE he’s worse than john Oh my gid he’s so IM pissed off mandy is good she’s so good she didn’t deserve any of this being stuck with mr botox is a fate worse that death i Like the traps i like the characters EXCEPT HOFFMANi hate hoffman i hate hoffman id Kmrjfhvhehsg id beat him up so bad if i could i hate him i hate him hes a dumbass baby with nothing going for him no one likes him he’s ugly hes dumb hes unbearable Oh its his fault b mandy died its his fault mandy had to kill lynn Omg he’s so smart~~I HATE YOU SO KUCH OH MY HOD he got the better of amanda because he’s not some gross woman with ACTUAL CHARACTER DEPTh unlike her~ yeah mandy’s dumb and stupid totdally it isn’t the other way around what do you mean lol Lolol lolllooolol hoffman is so unintelligent he’s actually the definition of shallow character he’s o stupid and unlikeable he was only somewhat tolerable when strahm was around and strahns annoying asf So you know it’s bad their conflict was actually enjoyable having someone challenge hoffman made him bearable We could’ve had that with lindsey but no dumb stupid woman she can’t do anything OBVIOUDLY there was slight hints in how she talked and looked at hoffman she was suspicious of him but there should have been more. he is so disgusting he’s a horrendous person it isn’t hypocritical mandy has depth and is genuinely complrx hoffman just acts like a pos and everyone LOVRS HIM YESSSSS!!!!! YES KING!!!!!! SLAY!!!!!!! Slay yourself actually bruh hoffman i need you gone i need you gone i need you Gone piss off bro jesus h e makes me sick. . he’s better in less serious situations i wish the movies actually took advantage of how dumb he acts it could be enjoyable but No of course not we have to act like he was a secret mastermind from the start Oh Yeah he’s always been there in the shadows he’s so sneaky he’s so Stleathy wow!!!! mandy > hoffman ok if i keep foing i’ll never be able to stop
mainly so I dont flood @elisabethmusaerica 's inbox, im makin it a post. Basically all about my godkin life that I remember
First in the under cut is some pictures I made in gacha and picrew of what we remember, and how we looked. Then the rant
Appearance description! : dark blue hair, had a slight shine to it like glitter, six eyes all a grayish, deerish ears, WINGSS, rest is pretty obvious in the pictures
Random things : big association with stars for some reason?? Cant remember if the snake was super important or just my pet, association with bugs and just nature in general, guardian angel of sorts-??
I dont remember much but for the most part I was a pretty minor god, not very cared for by the other gods, I dont remember what they looked like, I dont even remember my name sadly. I do remember having a garden though, everything was kind of liminal in nature where i normally stayed
I have some memories of helping kids pass on, I dont remember what they look like either but they always looked doll-like in my eyes
Thats as much as I can recall for this sadly, I do have other main Kins tho
Most are fictionkins but what seems a little more important is we're also a sea-nymph kin, Jester kin (seemingly plauge times), and Siren kin ^^ if any of those sound important do tell, im more than happy to share!
I am death, decay and the dirt which underneath you will be buried. I am magic, mystery of the universe and the veil between worlds itself. I am judgement - let us hope it is just this time.
And I reject being an honourable god. I reject being composed. I reject being regal.
I am a disgusting, wretched god of all things raw and real. Tangible? Not always. But they permeate through every living being like the plague. You cannot hide from your fate. You cannot turn a blind eye to the magic coursing through you and every other living being on this earth. You can never escape judgement, even if only self-inflicted.
My mortality is not a flaw. It is a domain in itself.
What would the death domain be without any eventual demise? What would the magic domain be without the ability to practice? What would the judgment domain be without the chance to receive it?
To truly understand your domain, you must live it.
How could I rule over such aspects of life without the instability of a mortal mind? The instability those domains inherently bring to our lives?
I am meant to be flesh, even when it fails me. And it often does.
Sorry for posting about this, I just wanna remind people about my kin boundaries.
I'm immediately gonna block you once you were to say "OMG MEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!" under my literally me kin posts.
Sorry.. But it makes me very uncomfortable, because this is a post about me/my experiences, and not about you/your experiences 😭😭😭 /nm /gen
I'd only be ok with it if you're a really close friend.. This isn't me trying to gatekeep, I just get really weirded out by people who do this. I get you're trying so hard to relate, or you're trying to be silly, but if anything this makes you look like an asshole.
Especially when I've literally stated in the post that I view the character as me...
I'm sorta ok with people who also kin my literally me kins for the most part, people have different experiences and that's totally ok, just don't say THIS under my posts. Or be a jerk in general..
one thing about my canon that actual mbav canon left out ? how unbelievably animalistic vampires are.
and i don't just mean in violence contexts !!!
we hiss. we growl. we purr. we trill. we're territorial over physical and nonphysical things. we follow things with our eyes like prey. we like physical activity. we like dark small spaces. we like beds with a million pillows and blankets. we rely very heavily on smells. hell, if you pick a vampire up by their backpack or the back of their shirt ? they curl up and just look at you like kittens do when you grab their scruff. obviously these vary a little bit but.
i'm a vampdog ( vampire / weredog ) in source so obviously i'm naturally more animalistic but that doesn't mean normal vampires aren't. i just happen to also pant and shake when my hair is wet and howl.
