#vx post

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feelin that internalized homophobia REAL BAD rn

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it’s hard to describe how i feel cut off and just separate from everyone. i feel like there is a wall between me and everyone, for some it’s a thin wall, for other’s it’s extremely thick and i’ll never break it down. but yeah just.. apart. 

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something about binders slipped through my blacklist now i’m like i am interested but also HAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAA STOP

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i tried and failed multiple times to type out some revelations re dysphoria i had recently and it didn’t work so let me just say that i feel like i realized ya, there IS a disconnect. one confirmed. i’ve always thought but now it’s like yes. you are disconnected and this is wrong. i feel upset that it exists like that but also. i feel a little better to have a little more certainty in my life. i wish that i would be certain in the other direction and be like “nope def not dysphoria!” but unfortunately it didn’t go that way. but idk. i feel a little less lost and that helps a tiny bit. 

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lmao no one follows this blog but porn blogs and honestly that is so freeing. sometimes i wish other people would follow and talk to me and shit but also i really really like how i can say whatever and scream into the abyss. aside from locking my blog this is as private as it gets. that’s pretty cool. 

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no you know what i was going to write a post about how being a girl is garbage i should get out now but no

i am a girl

i am a woman 

it doesn’t matter if i’m dysphoric or not, woman is a category i belong to if i want to or not, if my brain says i should be or not, if my body wants it or not. it doesn’t matter. i can be a girl because i am one, no one can take this away. i am a girl, and girls are great, and i love them, and i am glad to love girls. even if all the girls i love leave then... it’s ok. being a girl is amazing and i should be proud to be born a girl and to live as a girl and to be seen as a girl. i am strong for being a girl. no matter what being a girl is a badge of honor i should be proud to be who i am because i am a survivor. i was born into a society that hates me and yet i am still here? that’s amazing. 

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I wanna cut my hair and get the bisexual bob

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everything is terrible, except girls, they’re good