Lots of Lasts
A few days ago I had my last Easter here in Chestertown. I’m always working on shows and so haven’t been able to make it home for Easter since starting college. But I have spent each Easter with my friend Taylor and his family who come down to Chestertown and host a big dinner for a bunch of us. It was a ton of fun, but it was also another last.
For me, I keep recognizing all the little lasts I’m having. Last advising day, last time I’ll get an email like that, last guest lecturer, etc., etc. But I’ve been kind of ignoring my big lasts. The ones that have been such a huge part of WAC for me that I had to ignore a bit to deal with things. I think Easter was one of them. Knowing next year I won’t be having Easter in Chestertown with friends was really weird for me. It was bittersweet.
But nothing was as bittersweet for me as performing in my last full production here back in March. I’m not ashamed to say that I cried. Hard. And a bit during the show even. I have been acting at WAC since my first semester here and I have changed so much as a person because of the department and the people there and the characters I have played. So ending Silent Sky was incredibly emotional for me. I didn’t cry when my theatre thesis wrapped, but I woke up on the last morning of Silent Sky already an emotional wreck.
All that day I felt waves of sadness, pride, confusion, happiness, I was just all over the place. For most of that show I could feel the urge to cry. I wasn’t choked up or losing it, but I knew I could in an instant. So when I finally reached an emotional scene where I could cry in act two with my friend Mark, I let it go. I got to say goodbye, or in reality my line “Thank You,” which fit just as much, to the department, and all the amazing times I have had onstage. Then I pulled it back together, finished the show, and let a tear or two fall during the bows.
While that wasn’t my last time acting here (I still act in class and other little things) that memory is one of the most wonderful of the past semester. Yes, it was bittersweet for me, but I love thinking back on that show and that moment and the overwhelming amount of love I had in my heart at that moment for everything WAC has given to me. I know in a few years I will still look back on that moment with as much love as I do now. Time and space cannot change that for me.











