#wails .

[mossyshadows]

is this a footnote by the translator.. is this a footnote by borges as a deliberate commentary on the 'infinity' of asterion's house

[literaphobe]

Okay I have a feeling for dream-foolish-tina-sykkuno on green

Ahh I knew drellumina chances weren't big but I want this team up so much :( At least scott hasn't outright said it's impossible, I still have hope. Maybe next mcc since this one is right after dream got 1st

I guess this would be cool……..

[pistolslinger]

@shufire​ said:

" I'll make sure to keep my distance. " He knows it isn't personal. That Jesper gets this way with everyone when stress is high. Some topics were touchy sometimes, no matter who tried to console them. They all got snippy, short, irritable, when pushed too much on them. & while silent support from afar was never his first choice, he'd do it. ( It wasn't much different, after all, from the countless I love you's thought or spoken when Jesper wasn't paying attention. )

" But, Jes, how long are we supposed to keep this up? "

     HE’S BEEN WALLOWING in an odd mix of guilt and aggravation all day, and for that reason alone, he’s tried to keep to himself entirely.  he had forgotten how physically tiring these moods could be, and he’s paying the price for it now — his bones felt almost leaden, and the exhaustion was starting to leach the will to hide and brood.  

     a full day of sullen silence isn’t easy to shed, though; there’s a nagging voice in the back of jesper’s head saying, you can’t just push someone away and then call them back like that, it’s not fair, just stay away now.  with kuwei especially, when he turned those imploring eyes on jesper, it was nigh impossible to not feel regret splashed in with the need to just sit near him, be around him, even though he’s not sure he deserves it.

     “ i know when i’m not good company.  i don’t — ”  i don’t want to subject you to it.  jesper opens his mouth to try and apologise, and finds he doesn’t know how to say it the right way — he doesn’t know how to say in a way kuwei will believe him, and that worries him.

     “ i don’t really want you to keep your distance.  but i also don’t want you . . . to see this, ”  this being the glaring crack in his normal demeanour.  this, being the proof that most, if not all, of his bravado was an act.  this, being the far less palatable part of him that he’d always associated with his most useless of moods — with his most useless and incumbent of states.  when this stressed and scattered, it always felt like he could do nothing right.  “ it’s not your job to put up with this, with me.  i’m sorry i pushed back.  you didn’t — you didn’t deserve that. ”

     he turns, slightly, to look at kuwei.  he drops his gaze fast.  “ you have better things to be doing than hanging around me anyway, i’m sure.  don’t let me hold you back. ”