#waitingforl

[wonderfulyou]

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I'll be the home you return to. _____________________________________________________ #wearewaterafterall @nahkobear #waitingforL #41weeks #yoga

[wonderfulyou]

The sky before evening meditation tonight😍 I'm still leading meditation circles twice a week at @island.yoga and I get blown away by the community every time. I light candles and burn palo santo and mix silence with music and discourses and we sit together holding space for an hour. Poppy is more active than ever and the hour just flies by, me with my hands on my belly, her twirling around like a Sufi dancer. Sitting in silence with her is so easy. We went to the midwife today and even though people around me are starting to get uncomfortable about how "overdue" I am I am feeling more trusting than ever. They wanted to set a date for an induction today but I'm refusing. This baby will be born at home, in peace. I'm only 8 days past my due date and don't feel any rush at all anymore. If I hit 14 days and she is still not here, ok, I'll go along with whatever is needed. But right now I feel deeply that being pushed toward drugs and medical interference is totally crazy! She is super active and moving a ton and her heartbeat is strong as ever; no reason to believe she needs to be forced out. (note: if there was any danger to her wellbeing of course I would do whatever it takes, but there is no indication of that at all). Tomorrow we are doing a scan so that everyone around us can stay relaxed... But I'm relaxed already. Trusting in our intuition. Little L will be born at home, undisturbed. Before the end of this week - I'm willing to bet on it!☺️💛 #trust #motherhood #waitingforL #ithinkfridayat1pm (at Island Yoga)

[wonderfulyou]

Dear Baby L, I know you don't like to be pressured. You have a comfortable home right now where you feel safe and I have a feeling that, just like me, the more people are trying to push you to do something the less inclined you are to move forward. That's ok. You like to do things your own way, in your own time. I understand that because I'm exactly the same. We are both stubborn and determined and, frankly, a little set in our ways. And that's a good thing. However. I would like for you to start thinking about making your way out into the world now. This is important. Your mom and dad want you to be born at home where it's quiet and we can be outside in the garden and cuddle the dogs and bring you forward in warm, comfortable water. It's going to be beautiful but you have to take my hand and start. It might feel like a scary transition but I promise you: I'll be here every step of the way. For the rest of your life. We love you so much and you are so, so safe. This side of the world is beautiful. I promise! There are sunrises to watch and puppies to play with and yummy food to eat and oceans - oceans - of love waiting for you. We can't wait to hold you. Please come. Love, Mom and Dad ❤ #waitingforL #10daysoverdue #trust #transition #love

[wonderfulyou]

Here I think she is doing the talking and @ringo_thegringo is doing the listening😍 For every day that passes he gets cuddlier and clingier... He literally drapes himself over the belly! I don't know if he is protecting her or claiming his territory or both🙈 I'm feeling so sad today. Fighting back tears all morning. @orothschild and @patrickbeke are moving to Sweden and I've been pushing it far far away pretending it's not happening. But it is. If I didn't have so much going on around this birth I don't think I'd be able to manage it. At least it's a good distraction. Life is hard. And full of contrasts. But still beautiful. Dee breaths. #waitingforpoppy #waitingforL #patlivia #family