And I'm not trying to be negative when i say i don't want kids either, I'm being realistic.
Like there are just gonna be more days like today, days where it's 25-30°C, super humid with no air. How would i cope with barely caring for myself and a crying kid? I don't see it. I love my niece and nephews I'm not saying anything to indicate otherwise, and I'm not saying my family says anything against any of these things i say cause they're awesome and understanding, i'm just rambling.
Like now I'm so exhausted I'm on the brink of crying, i just had to go back to my room and lie down.
I gotta say I've never wanted kids either, obv I've played with the idea but it's been more of a thing that seems to be printed into every girls minds - husband and kids. I guess that's a part of the reason why it took me so long to realize i was bi as well because my route in life was kind of already set in terms of society, not my family's, but society. Like how i recently gave away all old baby doll and her stuff to my niece, things like a potty and stroller, it's pretty weird to be a baby with those things and play that you're caring for a baby. I'm obv super grateful i have such lovely people in my life who gifted me those toys, it's just something i talked to mom about when we found those things. Also something I've realized being an auntie. My siblings don't care if the boy plays with "the girl toys" or vise versa, but the fact that it's still so designed that girls will play with a baby doll and pretend to be a mommy, even if they're a baby too, and boys will play with cars and machines etc.
Again, my family, my siblings, they don't do anything wrong, i played with barbies and still beat the shiiit out of people on streetfighter on snes, but I'm just having an auntie moment realizing stuff about the world 😂 I'm just realizing I'm gonna do my thing, in my time (which sadly isn't the time i would like as my illnesses dictate so much so imo everything goes a bit too slow), I'm just a lil done with society.
